lunatic brainiac me

2007-07-10T14:13:00.002+08:00

wow.
its been a LONG time ne?

i miss this blog.

im gonna update soon.

XP

2007-07-10T14:13:00.001+08:00

wow.
its been a LONG time ne?

i miss this blog.

im gonna update soon.

XP

its been a while.

2007-05-19T16:08:00.000+08:00

its been a while.
i wonder if he's thinkin of me.

i wonder.

this made me sane.

2007-03-23T07:42:00.000+08:00

yeap.
my copy of Aozora Pedaru arrived last night.
thanks.
thanks.
a million thanks.
this made me happy.
u made my sister laugh.
u said to keep this a secret.
and i will.
thanks.
so much.
im just too ureshii.
u made our worst time bearable for me and my sis.
thanks.
love u a bunch.
take care there.
will talk to u soon.

i do not own this official pics. Yori owns them. i just took a pic of it. coz the boys are so cute. will give them to Yori this afternoon.

i will not quit.
Gambaremasu!

Junified.

2007-03-07T08:13:00.000+08:00

sometimes.
i wanna give up being a translator for Junified...
since i really receive little feedbacks.
but when i read those lil comments...
like, "It must have been hard translating this part!" or "Ate Katz, nice translation, thanks for sharin!" or "What you do is hard. Please keep on translating!
eventhough those comments are expressed through posts or pms or sms, i appreciate them.
It always give me the courage to do great in translating...
just last night, my mom gave me chocs and boiled peanuts then told me,"Thats for u to eat while youre typing those things."
Eventhough my mom says little about this things, my mom never prohibited me to do the things i wanna do.
like buying things...
or being infront of the PC for hours....
thats why I dont wanna quit being a translator.
coz although not many people appreciates it, there are still people who takes their precious time to read it.
they maybe few but they still support me ne?
thats a great thing ne?
being appreciated... being accepted...

to all my readers in Junified, arigatou!!

kathy is happy when everybody's genki!
hahaha. i just camwhored a few nights ago!!

my Love So Sweet single arrive yesterday.

2007-02-23T08:14:00.000+08:00

so i arrived late last night.around 10:45pm.

and i was so tired.im so asleep. i wasnt thinking clear coz of some problems that i had.

and i was so sleepy.

then...i randomly asked my sis...

Kathy: Did the package arrived already?

Kathrina: Ask Kenneth, I fell asleep.

Kathy: You didnt know? Ok.

so i asked my brother.

Kathy: Did my LSS arrived today?

Ken: Yes. It was thrown by the mailman by the door. the package was big.

Kathy: So where was it?

Kenneth: They didnt give it to me. They need proof that u live here. They needed a letter of authorization.

Kathy: Majide? Tell me the truth! (I was shouting coz they did this before with my first package...they hid my Arashi uchiwa from Mel and my dvds from Joanna!)

Kenneth: Ask Kathrina.

so I went to my room.

i looked everywhere.

no package.

Then my sister entered the room.

Kathrina: What are u doing?

Kathy: Where's my package?

Kathrina: Why are u thinkin that youre package arrived already?

Kathy: Coz i can feel it. I can sense since morning that it will arrive today.

Kathrina: Ok. Here.
she handed me a box.

it was my package.

I shouted.

my mom, my lil bro (Louie) and Kathrina surrounded me.i took pics first, of course.

I feel more excited than of when i received Arashic.
So i ripped everything. the box and the balloon thing.

i saw some things,there was a slim cd case.

with the boys with lil cars.

i saw the lyric sheet (in Nihonggo, like my Arashic)

then i saw papers.

one was a paper with dates written on it.

it says ARASHI AROUND ASIA

at the top with dates and time after that.

april 21 - 18:00

april 22 - 16:00

april 29 - 18:00

april 30 - 18:00

and it says to visit http://www.johnnys-net.jp
then after that is this:
-------------------------------------------

a broken line. like the sign where u can cut it.
then it says:

J Storm MOVIE 6

before and after the number 6 was kanji characters i cannot read then another date was written.

april 4.

then another "april" at the next line.

then the official site of kiiroi namida was at the bottom.
the other paper left me curious.

it was the paper at the side of the cd. at the front of the cd before u open it. its the paper at the side.

wat was written there was a url.

i think that u will go to that url.

and at the top was a date.

feb21,2007 - feb25,2007

my guess was that u can go to the url at that time only.

again at the bottom was a set of 8 numbers.

i think it was a code.

but i dont know wat was it for though.so please to those who bought the Limited Edition of Love So Sweet, please help me!

Onegai shimasu!!!!!
i was so disappointed that there were no freebies.

no dvd, no booklet, no file slip.

bad bad kathy.

but im happy that I helped the boys.

me buyin the album helped the boys in the Oricon Charts.

i wanna see them at the top1 position this weekend.
the pictures are at the top.

can anyone translate it for me?
im playing the cd while typin these.

Itsumademo rocks!!!!

i love the SHO-rap!

till the next entry!

random.

2007-02-20T06:14:00.000+08:00

first, gomen for not being able to blog for a while.
i got caught up with so many things.
and so many thing had happen over the weekend that im still in a haze.
i miss bloggin for real.
ok.
what do i wanna talk about today?
ah. Tomorrow is a big day.
My LSS will be shipped tomorrow!
Yay!
(Read: LSS is Love So Sweet--> a single of Arashi.)
I wish it will arrive to me ne?
haiz.I dont know what to do if it will not arrive.
Im so excited for Itsumademo.
And the PV.
I havent seen it yet.
Hope to see it soon.---

im so moody this past few days.
im always pissed.
i havent sent any sms for the last 24hours coz im just lazy.
(and im broke as well.)
that day, i think it was friday.
I cried.
its been a while since I cried like that.
Im just fed-up I guess.
I just dont want to worry so much and I dont want people to worry about me.
Sometimes, I want people to know that im okay.
That eventhough I cry so much sometimes, there is no need to worry about me.
I hate it when people think so much of me. like im a burden to them.
I never wanted to be a burden.
So its better to show people that im always happy so that people wont worry.
Shutting people out when im crying is something Im used to.
I do that to tell people that I really can surpass things like that.
I know that sharing your pain to others will make u feel better but have u thought that if u share ur pain to another person, that person will have a piece of the pain that u felt...
Now. the 2 of u got that pain already ne?
So thats how things work out for me.
Id rather have that pain than to share it with others.
Like what a song goes, "Its alright Im ok. I think God can explain..."
Things happen for a reason.
There is always a reason behind everything.
---
I recently discovered a game.
Its called "Stress reducer"
You can smash ur pc with hammer.
Color it with paint.
Have termites around.
it was so fun and u know whats weird?
its been in my PC for like 1 and a 1/2 year and its my first time to play it.
here's a pic of what i done.Now.

I need to go.
Coz Im sleepy.
Ja!
it may take 2weeks before I blog here again!
ja Matta!

im just.moody.

2007-02-06T18:04:00.000+08:00

this past few days has been hard for me.
lack of sleep is makin me so moody ne?
and i just want to be left alone.
i wish their are things that can make u happier.
like simple things.
i havent been happy for the longest time ne?
like so happy.

i wonder how is HE...

happy birthday, keio boy!

2007-01-25T05:39:00.000+08:00

to my ichiban!

to the person who makes my life brighter!!!

rabu to you!!

hope that your birthday party will be fun!!

to all my arashiPh girls!!

letz have fun!!

ja matta!!

his birthday.

2007-01-23T17:52:00.000+08:00

today is my boyfriend's birthday!!!

YANI!! happy birthday!!
his party is startin in a moment!!
and take care of yourself....

hahaha!!
u will always be my boyfriend!!
eventhough panda is takin u away from me!!!
yani.
happy birthday!!
letz rock at your party!!
muaxxxxx..
muaaccckss!!
*\^,^/*

my ichiban's birthday is comin soon ne?
2days...
sho is turnin 25!!

i hope the party for sho on thursday will be successful ne?
aahhh...

ja ne!!

devil does exist.

2007-01-16T07:55:00.000+08:00

have u ever had an expensive hobby?
i recently got one...
collecting mangas...
(mangas:japanese comics)

its so damn expensive...
but i love the series im collecting so it doesnt matter...
waah.
i got to save money..
i already preordered "love so sweet" recently..
thanks to gene..

but the next single is on april (?)
and an album on may?
what?

i think i need to save...
but i love takeru..
and i wanna continue reading "devil does exist"...
what a life!!

im starting to order online...
when i can i process a trip to japan to see the boys?
waaahhh!!
i miss blogging!!
its been weeks!!
waah!!

ja!

pics. guess what?

2007-01-12T17:43:00.000+08:00

new year's eve.
my. keiichi. from. trei.
i love flans!!
the one place i wanna go to. shibuya!
the sick panda. at st. lukes
kathy.addict. sleepy.
panda. at. atrium. hotel.

yani. betrayed. me!!!

ja!!

akemashite omedertou!

2007-01-01T08:26:00.000+08:00

akemashite omedetou, minna!!!

hope we all have an arashi-filled 2007!!

yay!

december happenings.

2006-12-30T08:23:00.000+08:00

its been so long since i last blogged here. and it felt so weird.
now.. december is ending really soon. i wonder. what will i do in 2007.
but before the year ends, here's some of my december pics.

do u know what's missing? yeah. its red. sho's color. i was asking trei, "do u know whats missing?" and trei said, "yeah. red. sho's color." i was like, "u really know me!!"
ah. i love this butter scotch cookies. too bad red was not there!!
ozack!!! my first ever ozack!
what i bought! the treasures i found!!

this is my ultimate dream!
my first uchiwa!
the front view. my new home chopsticks!!ah!! the yamapi ice cream!
expensive noodles!!
the hokkaido bread! cherries are inside!!
lil tokyo in makati!!
gene in tokyo!!
half pizza. half with pineapple. you can order this at yellowcab!
2 of my very bestfriends. fooling around at the atrium hotel restroom!! panda and trei!
the sleepover!
my new grand chucks!! its what i live for!!!^_^

the pooh. i sleep with him every night!!

ja!!

akemashite omedetou, minna!!

OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU, FUMI!

2006-12-24T10:33:00.000+08:00

our fumi is 24 today!!!
otanjoubi omedetou, aiba chan!!!
ok. so its 14 hours before xmas and all the gifts i received are all great!!
arigatou!!!
trei gave me a jiggy twin!!!
woah!!!
i love it.
and my boo. yani. gave me a keychain. boo, where's the car!!
ah. panda, the chopsticks are so sugoi!!!
waah.

yori, arigatou for the pikanchi movie!
joanna, thanks for the hig? dvd version and the CxDxG no arashi dvds!!!! and the mukodono drama!! waah! arigatou!
thea: thanks so much for the kodomo no bongohan vcd!!! waah.

i love all the gifts... but the best gift is the friendship you gave to me!!
arigatou!!
have a peaceful xmas eve!!!

japanese things and back to normal.

2006-12-15T19:11:00.000+08:00

im so tired but im so happy ne?
i spent the day with panda!!!

although she was late, it was so fun.
we found the MOW ice cream... if your a JE hardcore fan like me and panda u will know that YAMAPI endorses it... ahh.. the ice cream was so umai!!!
and we bought this crazy bread called "hokkaido bread" which is a soft bread with pieces of cherries in janipan bakeshop in gloritta!!!!! umai!!!
and i bought a new pair of chopsticks. and a noodles at a japanese grocery store near buma called "hatchin"...i was really lookin for OZACK but found none.
walked at little tokyo and met "takano-san"!!! kawaii!! he's like 13 or 14. and he taught us where to buy manga!! but i found none at hatchin though there were old mags. where "nobuta" was in the front and i saw kimutaku at the back... and its 50bucks only!! no arashi though!!
we ate pancake house... so umai ne? but the service was so bad.
i warn u not to eat pancake house at glorietta!!

we went to starbucks again!! no strawberry and cream frappe for me but carmel cream frappe!!
eh? we went to the bank to fix the online account so i can order "love so sweet" but we will wait for 5-10 bank days... please... release the arashi single in 15 days.. so that my account will be ready ne?

ah. im tired.
yabai! nino is not nominated!!

eh? NANDE?
NANDE?
NANDE?

ITS SO SAD. about nino not being nominated.

ja!

one lucky girl

2006-12-15T09:52:00.000+08:00

see how lucky she is?

she's in LA and she got free premiere tickets for Letters from Iwo Jima!!

waah!!

i so envy her.

miss u, iris.

take care there!!

waah!

something new.

2006-12-12T13:21:00.000+08:00

do u like this lay out or the black one.
please vote! by tagging at my cbox!
and can someone help me fix the comments.
arigatou!

spaghetti party overload

2006-12-06T22:24:00.000+08:00

yesterday was so so fun!!
one of the funniest party that we had.
cookin spaghetti was so fun ne?
first, we went to have our lil grocery at shopwise.and i learned from gene-sensei that there are different cuts for beef and pork meat!!(how can one panda be that smart ne?)!!! hahahaah!!

after that, we bought ice cream outside.. i picked "buko salad" coz i love buko but sad to say that the ice cream tastes a lot like MILK. no flavor at all. but still so umai!!!
then we walked for like 500meters to trei and yani's apartment. had fun cutting onions. i got teary eyed. i cut the onions, cheese, and hotdog... while gene-sensei cut the garlic. and onions. while we were cutting we were boiling the egg for our yummy egg sandwich!! yani prepared it!! so umai ne? then we cooked the pasta.. i think we did a great job ne? coz all of us are really stuffed. it was so umai that i cannot breathe!! ahahaha... i think spaghetti parties are the best ne? and i think that we should trying cooking pizza next time ne?..

then we cam-whored!! i went home around 10:30pm... arrived at home--->> 12mn. my mom was so freakin worried but i was so happy... trei and gene knew why my mom was worried coz i told mom that i got no money and that i havent eaten anything for the whole day!!
bad bad katz!!dont copy me la!!
im not a good example.im such a lame example to the younger generation!!(as if im super old!!!)

im 21 already. too old ne?
i think when ur 21 u should be a lil mature about everything ne?

and btw, me and gene are looking for hotels... we got no place to sleep come saturday night...this is so hard ne? gene chan? i hope we can find some place to sleep in ne?

parties are so fun.like everybody's so happy ne? and i think that parties should happen
everynight!!i hope i was 18 again ne?so that i can do anything...hahahaha...

iiii have to goooo!!
ja!

minna, kio tsukette ne kudasai!!please keep the rabu rabu alive to ARASHI!!onegai shimasu!!

this are the pictures!~!!!
dont ask. he's my inspiration.
ah.
trei-sama!
how could u torture jiggy?
starbucks budz. zzzzz...
umai!
my food. a lil gross. im a pig! but loook at my plate!!!! its a starfish plate!
meaty!
i did the screencap. so dont steal. koyama with sho?!
the kon pose of gene chan!
me wokin up this morning! how fat! buta desu!
gene and katz dolphins. angels of the sea!
ah!
gene-pi pose!!! kon!
eh?
ahaaahh!!

ja!

sayonara

2006-12-05T17:30:00.000+08:00

i was listening to his song now.
he likes korean.
and i was wonderin.. will i ever forget him.

maybe it wasnt really meant for me...

so this post is a goodbye to my feelings for him.
i may not be over him but i believe that one day, i will be.

and if that day comes, i will smile to myself and think about that boy who messes my mood but gave me something to look forward to. the person who can make me smile just by smilin.

i miss him. and im not gonna lie about it.
but this is whats meant to be.

sayonara,w.

and besides, the spaghetti party is goin to start in a few mo.
with gene, trei, me and my boo, yani.

sayonara,w.
and this time its for real.

i miss this guy.

2006-12-04T18:25:00.000+08:00

i miss this guy. a classmate from my primary school days... this was last year. we always contact each other on holidays and birthdays.. we dont txt each other everyday so i think im txting him tonight coz i miss him.
waah, K, ur ok there?

a new mobile number

2006-12-04T17:48:00.000+08:00

since i received a freakin phone call this noon, i decided to change my number.

i wonder why people are so freakin rude sometimes.
prank calls suck.
and i wonder why they spend money calling me.
lame calls.
lame people.

i wonder.. again... where the hell did they got my phone number....
ahh.
i gave up so im changin my phone number now la!

ja!

koyama keichiiro

2006-12-03T17:08:00.000+08:00

Name: Koyama Keiichiro
Kanji: 小山慶一郎
Nickname: Kei-chan, Koyamacchi
Date of birth: 1st May 1984
Birth place: Kanagawa
Blood type: O
Weight: 60 kg
Height: 177 cm
Vision: The left /1.0 The right /1.0
Size Foot: 26 cm
Family: Father, Mother, Elder sister
House: Ramen house
Speciality: Baseball
Joining Johnny's Jr: 21th January 2001
Favorite sempai: Sakurai Sho (Arashi)
Future dream: Would like to become famous like SMAP
Hobby: Karaoke singing KinKi Kids songs
School: 3rd year Meiji University in Japanese and Chinese department
Old JE band: BAD, J-support, KKKity
Drama: kanojo ga shinjyatta with Tomoya Nagase (Tokio).Engimono's series Unlucky DEIZU~NAMME no bousou as SAIDA with Sho Sakurai (Arashi), Ns' Aoi as Kitazawa Takeshi, Hana yome wo yakudoshi as Azuchi Jirou.
Like:
Food: Ramen (Chinese noodles), ice cocoa
Color: White
Flower: Sunflower
Subject: The Japanese history
Season: Summer
Fragrance: Lavende
rColor of clothes: Brown
Animal: Cat (His cat named Nyantai)
Girl: To tell the truth, secure person, Speaking, it is pleasant !
Dislike:
Food: Tomato
Subject: Art
Season: Winter
Weather: Rainy
Animal: Bugs

credit: http://elegant-koyama.site.voila.fr/
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within 30seconds i can type his name without falter.
i first saw this guy in Shounen Club Premium (with Koki) interviewing ARASHI right after they sang "Kitto Daijoubu" last July2006. then i saw him again in SC interviewing ARASHI again before arashi performed "Wish"... then Thea gave me the "Teppen" video.. and i saw him again and then i saw him in "Kurosagi"...waah.. this guy is makin me betray ARASHI... wahh!! i like him so much. now 200% like. know why? its his eyes. dont ever guess who i remember whenever i see his wonderful eyes... ah koyama, ur so adorable ne? and it wouldnt hurt that SHO was his favorite sempai ne? and he's in Meiji Uni (like yamapi)... and he's studying chinese or is he chinese? he looks chinese to me.. and he got a NEKO!! neko--->> means cat.. cat---> KATZ ---> thats me!! and i love cats!!!

ok. so aside form U-chan and Pi-chan and Ryo-kun, i now officially add Koyama as my other Johnny's favorite boys...

wahh, i forgot about SHO when i saw that pic. wahh!!

the "sho" frappe.

2006-12-03T15:54:00.000+08:00

ok. lets begin with what i hate today... i hate missed calls. i hate it when people try calling me with different numbers. i like it when its from friends but from strangers are a big no-no. so who ever owns this number:

+639183211362

+639178983364

please refrain from waking me up in the morning with ur unwanted calls. sms me. and i know that its not nice posting numbers here but hey, ur ruining my morning and my day coz i woke up when u call me. so to those people who own those numbers. please, i'd rather u calling me at night. ahh, i wonder where did the hell u got my number? this past few weeks, my phone has been bombarded with "unregistered numbers"....i got a gut feeling that its "her"... ahh, what do u want from me la? are u trying to test me if im gonna sms back or are ur checkin if i got credits to sms u back? ahha. enough. dont call me in the morning!
here's the pics ive been wanting to share... our SB pics. ahh. gomen ne gene-chan. i accidentally deleted ur pics!! gomen ne!!last thursday, gene-chan treated me in SB... and guess what she named the frappe for? see the pics to find out!!

but first...
here's the choc peppermint cake that gene ate. so cute but taste yucky la!!

---
mah mah, ok.

gene said: lets post this in ur blog and tell the people that JIN and SHO ordered it for us... gene, JIN's name starts with a "J" not a G. ok. GIN is gene's way of spelling her name which is GENNIE. mah, im a lil lost!! ahahhaha. well, im happy, gene-chan!! domo arigatou!! jersey was so funny too!! we shot "panda no mahwah" ne? did u upload it in youtube? hahahahaha... ahh,. that strawberries and cream frappe is makin me crave for one ne?
the "sho" frappe!!!! i love strawberries and cream!!!!!!!!!!!

ja matta!!

i wonder how the panda is doing there ne?

panda, neko is lookin for u!!

ja!

waah. this made my head hurts. and my heart melt.

2006-12-02T19:55:00.000+08:00

this guys made me sane. they are like what i live for. nobody can surpass arashi. eventhough my pockets are empty because of them. hahaha.
can somebody translate this for me. its makin my head ache. its from the official J-Storm site. its in kanji. woah, my head hurts!

ja!

surfing alone. without the panda.

2006-12-02T19:03:00.000+08:00

song of the day: Paretto by Arashi and TEPPEN by NewS
JE guy of the day: U-chan!!!!

^_^

have u ever seen U-chan singing an arashi song?
its here at this link.
my friend from multiply uploaded it and u-chan did a great job!
http://fikfik21.multiply.com/video/item/9?mark_read=fikfik21:video:9
he sang "Kotoba Yori Taisetsuna Mono" so so sugee~~~!!

its from a friend. so im givin all the credits to her!!

---
the past two days was the worst for me. again.
i wouldnt wish for it to happen.
once, people should think of other people's feelings before they do something
or try to reconsider the people around u before u make a move.
its so true that u should think before u leap.
i never thought that my sister felt that way.
if i could just take that pain away from her, i would.
my sister is so young. she just turned 19 and she should be partying.
not doing these things for other people.
who messes my life. my brother's life and my sister's life.
i wish he can read this.
so he will know that im so fucked up.
my sis is fucked up.
and my lil bro is fucked up.
we are all fucked up.
with his messy life and his messy mood swings and his ******* girlfriend.
and i wish for the better.
im so freakin mad. and i never thought that my sis thinks that way.
i will protect her no matter what.
---

enough of my ranting.
i wish i can go to japan right now.

hahaha. how i wish it will be that easy.

im so mean ne?

----

i play chaperone! and paparazzi as well!

2006-11-30T18:38:00.000+08:00

--
action speaks louder than words. so sugee~~ that they are together ne?
hope that all their dreams come true!!

gene and i did a great job being chaperones ne?
and paparazzi as well!!

ja ne!

casino royale

2006-11-26T21:13:00.000+08:00

i just watched "casino royale" in greenbelt with gene, sheila and eric. the movie was ok. im not really a fan of James Bond ne? and we ate like pigs at North Park. paid 1000php+ for the food for 4 people ne? hahahaha. we ate squids, chic, shrimps and the expensive rice. hahaha. they ordered brocolli and mushroom but didnt eat it. coz i hate MUSHROOMS big time. sheila was happy so im happy. went to starbucks for the frutsu jutsu... hahahaha. im gonna post the pics here soon. got lotsa to share. adorable panda is really helpful ne? i love pulling her hair.

and we all did this coz its oh-chan's birthday today!!
happy birthday, ohno satoshi-san!!!

ja ne!

otanjoubi omedetou, ridaa!!

2006-11-26T14:01:00.000+08:00

today is ridaa's birthday.
so im greeting him from the bottom of my heart!

OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU RIDAA!
hope u'll have a great one.
much love to you!

neko no mahwah and oh-chan

2006-11-25T20:40:00.000+08:00

its so funnny. when u watch "AnoArashi" with gene and trei.
now at noon, we filmed our first ever "NekoNoMahwah"
sugee~~~

its gonna be in youtube.
pls. watch it. hahahahaha
its a video of me receiving my first christmas gift for christmas2006.
its so funny !!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L7ND-8UHTNI
that's sho's interview with clint eastwood.
i hope he spoke english.
but he didnt.
so sad ne?

and were gonna celebrate ohno's birthday tomorrow by going to the mall and watch a movie!! sugee~~
OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU OH-CHAN!! CAPTAIN IS 26 ALREADY!!

im gonna go.
ja!

GTK

2006-11-25T00:38:00.000+08:00

its 12:17 AM 11/25/2006
while im writing this and i got mixed emotions as of the mo.

i got home 2hours ago from Glorietta. had dinner in Tokyo Tokyo. umai 100x. and tonkatsu made me smile. bought lotsa sweet food today. pretzels, choc crunchies, hopia... no soya milk for me for the last 5days and im missing it so much. waah, i smoke today, and the cig is 200% great! a cafe cappucino cig trei bought. it was my first cig in the last 2weeks. and it was so sugoi! taste a LOT like coffee. and i tell u, that everybody should try it. btw, my boyfriend left me again. waaah!!! yani, how could u break my fragile heart? waahh!! so im single again ne? anybody there who wants to be my boyfriend? to make me forget about yani!!! hahahaha. im so happy that yani is happy. love yani so muchy.

another topic.

GTK. what a lame name. gene created it.G=GeneT=TreiK=Kathy

and we watched like 10 videos of arashi. almost AnoArashi. laughed so hard at aiba and sho with that freezer experiment again. and Trei said that the "sho drawing of Totoro-who-looks-like-a-snowman-with-bodyhair" is stuck in her head. and we watched the "Aiba in the Philippines" Tensai episode and we laughed so hard... the people from Ilocos is so lucky ne. and bcoz of these videos, we (GTK) will create a video like AnoArashi. we had it named "NekoNoMahwah" for me, "PandaNoMahwah" for Gene and "KondumuNoMahwah" for Trei.... hahahaha... trei. kondomu? condoms? hahaha. thats so so funny. well, its obvious that its "neko" for me. neko=cat... and gene is a panda. black and white. thats my bear, gene, the panda. and trei... were thinkin like "KumaNoArashi" for trei but its like 2bears now ne? so were still thinkin... oh, "Mahwah" is our team's name in TOP. Mahwah is a city in NJ. New Jersey,USA....

so were gonna film everything and have it publish it youtube. and were gonna be famous!!! hahahahaahahahaha. and its all bcoz of that crazy AnoArashi episodes. hahahaha.
seriously, in times of darkness and problems, im so glad i got Trei and Gene. arigatou ne? for being my sisters. you guys are special. i never thought i can have friends like you two. panda and kuma. buta,,,busu,.,.. jodan! jodan!

i gotta sleep. i have shift tomorrow. and i will be sheila's chaperone on a movie date on sunday with Gene.

*yawn*guess whats the song right now?its "Beautiful Soul" by Jesse McCartney. so sappy ne?
coz i suddenly got this feeling that i wont listen to arashi tonight.
oyasumi!
12:38 AM 11/25/2006

hero and happy thanksgiving!!

2006-11-23T21:25:00.000+08:00

"watashi wa nanishite agereta no darou, nanishite agerenakatta no darou?
demo kami-sama nante inai."

minna, happy thanksgiving! hope u all had a great one!

i miss a lot of things. like the time when i dont care about a lot of things. the time when i can go out for a whole straight week and i dont have to think about things or people. i miss the time when im happy all the time. like everythings ok. like u dont have anything on mind except being happy. lookin back, this year was the hardest for me. lost many things. the only good thing about this year was knowing arashi and meeting new friends. i realized that im in this point in life where youre so lost. at this moment, i dont know what to do. i dont know where to go. should i quit workin? should i go back to school? should i do this? it just hit on me... that life is not all the non-stop partying or the happy smoking sessions or the mall-hopping. reality sinks in the moment u want it to disappear. i need to change my priorities now that my dad forgot about us. i need to set my goals straight ne?enough about my crap. my shitty life.

i got nuttin to do so i did this. 3 different versions of my desktop. recently, im so into nino. hahaha. i changed overnight ne? i know this is momentarily only. i know i will go back to sho. no matter what. hahaha. typical me. fickleminded and stubborn. did u know that nino sang "march 9" in mago mago arashi? and whats crazy is that i had it in my pc for months and i didnt open it. so so stupid of me. enjoy the wallpapers! the pics are at the bottom.

i miss the aiya forum so much. that forum was my first forum. and it used to be so alive! i miss the yayil and potsy sarcastic fights, the aerial-sab-kathy edison talks, the off topic talks, the yana-shar advices, my crazy pms to bad and a lot of things. these people are my family. i miss the "boss j pms" or the reply messages of potsy to my nonsense questions. i still remember the time when i received my first email from boss j. i was so dead excited then. i havent heard from him and the others for months now. wah, i miss the aiya asylum!! maybe i will fax them my message ne? i got the fax number with me and i think i lost it. so lame of me. seriously, i miss all the aiya members. yana,sab,shar,viv,nix,aerial,yayil,bad,ryao... maybe all are busy ne? the only person who sms me still is chin. i see malaysia, singapore and china in these people's views and ideas. the best peeps ive known. lets talk sometime ne?

im a lil sleepy so i need to go back to my bed and sleep. i just got this sudden feeling to blog. but im stopping,

before i go here are my pics of the gene-kathy dolphins. see how pretty and classy they are?
ja ne!oyasumi, minna!!

9:15 PM 11/23/2006

oh im watching that matsujun special utawara july302006 episode and i just realize that sho was wearing a white YSL polo shirt. and i looked at aiba and i saw YSL too. and nino and ohno and jun. and at the end of the performance they were soaked in water.. they soaked the white YSL shirt...wow. how rich.. a YSL bracelet that Vanness Wu bought last 2003 cost around 10,000php or $200. and thats a bracelet only... woah.. a shirt might cost around 20,000php or $400 or 51500yen. im not sure about that but i know the prices ranges around that...and arashi soaked it in water? but the dance of "i want somebody" is their best dance ever. dont get me wrong, this isnt the first time i saw this video. it was shown in japan last july30 and i got my own copy sent to me on august4. 5days after it was aired in japan. its just that i havent seen it for months.
ok. i need to sleep. oyasumi!

here are the pics. its kinda a LOT so for give me. im not lazy tonight ne?

my old desktop. sho was really my world.
he turned my world upside down.
this is my fave pic of gene. this was early this year.
my new wall paper. im into nino right now.
torn between them.
you do not need a reason to like this guy!
the nose cream sisters. me and my ever fave sis, kathrina!
from hero.. i screencap this last night. i just dont like him at this moment.
how adorable. i just LIKE HIM SO MUCH right now.
nino is nino. arggh.
my dolphin from gene... why red? coz that is sho's color. now i wish it was yellow. yellow is nino's color.
i love this pic. chibi, katz, midori and panda last september.
nino and aiba. my second fave desktop wallpaper!
chibi, katz and trei in our ever crazy pictorials.
the dolphins. mine is red . gene's black.
my ever loving west bestfriend. this was last february. iris flew to LA last sunday. i hope she's super ok. miss u. honestly, i didnt know im gonna miss her. pls email me ne? kio tsukette ne.

oyasumi, and this time its for real.

maji namida

2006-11-18T20:48:00.000+08:00

i guess if ur fed up, ur gonna cry.
and i cried infront fo gene yesterday.
i cried so much, i think.
but im ok. now.
but i know im gonna cry again.
i do hope that gene will not get tired of my crying.
and my arashi babbling.
im with her right now. she's into ryo as of the mo.
watching any ryo vidz she can watch.
im into arashi as of the mo.
and im so so so so so proud of nino.
clint eastwood praising him made me so happy.
dec202006. the showing date in US.
i wonder when? here in the philippines.

recently, i cannot blog properly.
more like small sentences.
so im gonna blog today ne?
gene called me like 8:50am.
i was on my way to west. and i was sleeping and i was listening to some arashi mp3s when my ever loser phone rang. my ringtone as of the mo is still "rb2u". and when i answered the phone. i was like, "mosh, mosh. ohayou" in a very sleepy tone. gene's voice was excited. she told me she was in mcd's. and i was miles away. when i arrived at west. guess what she gave me?
a dolphin cellphone thingy.
and guess whats the color of the string?
RED. sho's color. sugee~~~
she got one too. a black one. and the dolphins were so amazing ne?
silver and got stones too. so classy and so pretty.
gene chan, kokoro kara, domo arigatou gozaimasu!
and i received another call from ARASHI PH big boss, thea-chan at around 2pm today. good thing i wasnt on the "floor" when she called me. i had my 2hour QA talk with shelz.
seems my phone is so busy ne?
so many calls this past few days.

and now im here at phoenix.
with gene. who just finished her peppermint mocha frappe from starbucks.
and me. i drank none.
im not thirsty.

before i end this.
here are the pics i wanna share.

gene chan pouring our beloved soya milk. we love soya!
i miss gokusen. i think im gonna watch it tonite. and im glad that i have my copy back safe and sound.
hyd2. arashi vox owns the pic. so im givin her all the credit. this is so sugee~~
my food last sunday. mac salad, spag, and grilled chic and cheese sauce in g4.

gene's food. potato salad, chic, spag. umai!

gotta go!!

ja!!

book of answers

2006-11-15T09:13:00.000+08:00

the JE boys of the day: ARASHI
song of the day: dear my friend
^_^

there is a book called "book of answers" sold in powerbooks. the author's name was carol bolt. its a 1000page book. the instruction was u should touch the book's cover and think of a question that can be answer by yes or no. ponder in that question for 10-15secs and start touching the page's edges and when u feel that its the right time to open the book then u should open it and look at the answer to ur question. gene introduced me to this great book(this was the time before we watched "flags of our fathers"). well, its really silly to depend on the book's answer but i gladly tried it.

my first question is..."will i ever see arashi in person?"
and the answer of the book? --> "You will regret it."
that kept me thinkin...how in the world will i regret seeing arashi in person???? nande??? i wanna think of positive things but all i think is about negative ones. like i will not like them in person or i will embarass myself when i see them or i will faint when i see them that i will not be able to see them... any reasons...

the next question is..."will i ever go to japan?"
the book's answer: "its time for u to go..."
and that freaked me out big time!! there are 1000pages and i chose that answer? woah! thats amazing ne? and at that moment...i believed in that book. gene said it worked for her.. i think that it worked for me too....
sugoi ja?

the third question is the "1litre of tears" question.."will i ever get married?"
and answer of the book: -->"no matter what."now, thats scary coz i dont wanna marry someone... well, not really. oh, unless the one im marrying is sho sakurai, yamapi, aiba, ohno or nino, thats fine. i can marry but if not, id rather be a spinster. \(^o^)/

the fourth question.."did i met the guy im marrying already?"
the book's answer---> "think of about ur homelife first"
think about this? how did the book knew that i got family issues? the book did freaked me out a lil.

my final question was..(i was supposed to ask tons of questions but the movie will start for about 15minutes and i dont wanna be late)"will i ever speak nihonggo fluently?"
the book's answer made me laugh..."dont be ridiculous!"
thats the book's answer and it made me realize that i will never speak nihonggo fluently...

maybe the book entices answers within u. i know its silly to rely on those answers but the answers were quite true ne? and i think that it will help u on deciding over some things but we got "free will" and i think we should use it. we were given a chance to make things work for us. and sometimes if the answers that we find makes us more confused then i think we should look more coz sometimes the answers we look for are just infront of us.

ahh, answers.

where can i find them?

and i was watching arashi cons last night and it made me realize that i will not see them ever. unless they become popular here in the philippines (which is impossible because there are only about a 100 people who knows arashi here in the philippines...) and have a concert. i cant go to japan. coz i havent got the resources and the time. i have to accept that the concert that i can watch are the ones that i got at home. hows it going? and iza!now and one concerts. i need to accept that to be able to understand the truth that i will not see them in person. haay, ang buhay nga naman.sometimes its so unfair...will i ever be happy again?

rants of kathy(who is depressed coz she cannot see arashi in person!)

ohayou!
this is a rare one coz this is a long entry. now.i need to go!
ja!

before i go and bcoz im not lazy today i will upload some pics.

the reason why i love nino. nino nino nino!
gene and my boyfriend, yani!! in sbarro!! mga taksil!!
my ticket for flags of our fathers in greenbelt. row "j" seat 10. great movie!
my ever lovable boyfriend with his new hairstyle... waah. miss u, yani!!

i need to go!

ja!

a lil disappointed but satisfied

2006-11-12T18:19:00.000+08:00

i just finished watching "flags of our fathers" in greenbelt with gene. and it was a great movie. but sadly, i didnt see any nino appearances. even the tip of his finger or the laces on his combat boots. now i cant wait for "letters from iwojima"... i bet he did great!! i bet he will make me proud again. the taste of whipped cream is still in my tongue. i liked cream but mixed with strawberry syrup or choc. ah, gene persuaded me to taste that figaro coffee white mocha something... waah, gomen ne gene chan, hate the taste ne? gomen ne.

i gotta go
im building yamapi group in multiply!
support me!

bbye!

wonder what?

2006-11-12T09:45:00.000+08:00

im bloggin early in the morning and i blogged last night. this is a rare thing that happen in the past few weeks i was out. sometimes, i wonder... do people worry when i dont answer sms or calls? do i freak out some people? sometimes, i want him to realize that ive been hurt by that news. injuring himself was a big thing for me. and he stopped doing what he loves bcoz of that injury. i will not speak or write his name here. but im hurt. i still care for him 200%. i wanna talk to him and ask him why the hell he didnt tell about that injury... i wanna know if he still cares.. coz i do. coz im hurt. and im lost again. seeing him like that in pictures and not talkin to him kinda slapped me back to reality. i forgot about arashi. i forgot about many things. i wonder will i be able to tell him everything? like sms him again? i wonder what in the world am i gonna do to make myself realize that he isnt the one for me. he threw me out of his life like a trash. but i still care. damn. damn kokoro. i hope i got a hard, metal heart so that it wont feel anything. AT ALL. coz right now. im broken. again. how could one guy make u feel like this? i wonder...

one moment

2006-11-11T19:49:00.000+08:00

JE guy of the day: NINOMIYA KAZUNARI! he is my guy of the moment! hahaha!!!
song of the day: dear my friend
^_^
im with gene today as usual.
and i miss bloggin so im bloggin today and im postin pics of my friend gene. its our adventures! and this is without gene's permission! hahahaha. i miss postin pics so here are some pics i wanna post!

gene in sakura (a jap resto @ MOA) the food was umai. gene ate tempura with curry sauce. i ate katsudon!
this was in sorabol. their BOLGOGI was so so so so so so umai! everybody should eat at sorabol. we celebrated nishikido ryo's birthday at sorabol!
guess who went to the premiere? NOT ME! gena!!! so lucky gena! and she got 4 freakin tickets and there were 2 spare tickets. she forgot about gene and me!! waah!!!
trei's lil toy from japan!! this is so useful!! moi and gene use it a LOT!
gene at ministop eating sharksfin? and SOYA!
my life. my drink. my soya milk!
gene at sbarro! we pigged out totally here!
gene and my boyfriend, YANI huggin each other at starbucks! how could u?!!!!
we piggeout at sbarro last night (again!)
and i love that im turning normal everyday.
yani and i are back together again!!! hahahahaha.
gene will kill me!
so there, gotta go!
need to go!

ja ne!

ryo day!

2006-11-06T19:12:00.000+08:00

JE boy of the day: SHO SAKURAI
song of the day: lucky man
^_^

me and gene celebrated nishikido ryo's birthday last saturday nov4 though ryo's birthday was nov3. the whole story was written here. that is gene's LJ. where she posted the ryo's day!
gomen ne for being so lazy.
gene and i had been spending a LOT happenings together lately. im not complaining. i love gene's company more than anyone else. she rocks my world! see this happenings: starbucks and italian ff in glo last oct23. ministop and surfing last oct24. moa, sakura and eyecenters last oct27. sbarro, sm southmall last oct28. ate she's bday party last oct30 and the ryo day last nov4.

i gotta go. the gene-katz adventures photos will be out soon. i promise.

ja ne!!
i love arashi more than ever. now. im gonna watch "flags of our fathers" on sunday. with gene.

ja!

shoorai o kangaeru

2006-10-28T08:41:00.000+08:00

JE boy of the day: NINO!
song of the day: Te Agero
^_^

im so proud of nino!!
impressing americans with his acting and impressing the media as well.
sugoi ne? and im so so proud of him.
^_^

went to MOA yesterday and it was HUGE. no kiddin. it was so huge. xq and i ate at a jap resto called "sakura" and i ate katsudon and xq ate tempura with curry sauce. umai!!! umai!! we ate salmon sushi too. strolled for like 2hours looking for bento boxes and eye centers. and i bought japanese bowls for rice and chopsticks to use at home. xq and i were really lookin for dolphin cellphone holders for our fone. like what aya and haruto did in "1litre no namida"... but we found nothin. gotta go back today!!

im gonna go!
ja ne!

just passin by

2006-10-24T16:27:00.000+08:00

JE boy of the day: Nishikado Ryo
song of the day: hadashi no mirai
^_^

its been what? 10 days since i blogged..
kinda so long ne?
this past 10 days has been the worst for me ne?
i got family issues... i wish i can solve them but i cannot.
but a lot people kept me sane this past few days.
gene!!!
my angel, gene!!
who always make me smile and im happy im turning her to a Johnny's fans as well.
she's fond of ryo and jun ne?
and last night was the happiest night ne?
we ate a LOT. she introduced me to soya milk. and she treated me to a glass of mocha frappe!
its my turn on friday, xiangqing!!
she loves yamapi! i love yamapi. and we all love soya milk!!

yori, arigatou ne?
for all the sms. that kept me through.
i appreciate everything.
oh about my xmas list, ur on it..
what dorama would u like ne?
ill buy it for u!!
but its just burned copies so its not much.
but name any jdorama ne?
arigatou!!

joana!
i can never ever live without this girl!!
thanks for everything... i would have not live on without u!!
arigatou for everything!!
u made me happy!!

yana!
the cds are gold to me.
love u and take care!

bad!
why do u need my help? whats up?
miss u man!!!

lastly, but definitely not the least!
janis!!
welcome back!
hope to see u soon!
ingatz!

i got so lil time.
im gonna try to blog more now.

ja ne!!

sho-looking-like-gackt video

2006-10-14T16:10:00.000+08:00

JE boy of the day: Sho Sakurai
song of the day: kotoba yori taitetsu na mono
^_^
have u ever seen sho lookin a lot like gackt? watch it at:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xh4UoDpec08&mode=related&search=
it was there "kotoba.." performance last 2003. and i love the way sho said "cmon, everybody stand up!" and i just adore him so much.
everybody knows i created 2 multiply groups. one for matsujun and one for nino.
and u know what? i got 25members in jun's group in less than 48hours. thats how popular jun is. nino got 17 which is so many. my sho group got 28members and that was opened for how many months now. seems like sho is unpopular ne? but i dont care. i love sho the most and i will keep my groups alive. to those who joined, kokoro kara hontou ni arigatou!
^_^
i was chatting with janis minutes ago but she suddenly disappeared ne? but she left me 2pics that i love and she told me that edc appeared half of the movie only... waah. i cant wait for the grudge 2 ne?
here are the pics!

every body wants to be yamapi's senorita!!!
will u watch? I WILL!! edc is my life!!

gotta go!!
ja ne!!
^_^

so busy. and so tired.

2006-10-13T12:58:00.000+08:00

JE boy of the day: Akanishi Jin
song of the day: romance by arashi
^_^
im so freakin tired.
i dont know why. im getting enough sleep but im still tired.
im sleeping 7-8 hours. from 2am-10am.
but im still tired.
i feel tired. i feel restless.
and i dont eat well too.
usually when i get home from west, i always eat, no matter what the time is.
but this week, i stopped doing that, and my brother kept on askin me,
"whats wrong with u? u havent been eating since monday."
and i said that i already ate but i did not.
i dont wanna go back to "that" again.
the time when i really cannot eat properly.
the time when my vomiting couldnt stop.
i wanna eat today.
so im gonna eat a lot today.
im gonna eat donuts. and munchkins, and siopao and breadpan.
im gonna eat proper dinner and lunch.
its 12:57nn and i havent eaten anything yet.
arrggh, im gonna eat!!
^_^
everybody knows im not fond of jin akanishi.
but he's momentarily out or disappearing for months.
he's gonna study overseas.
i wonder what pi feels ne?
its admirable that he wanna learn more!
but i will miss him.
its a lil sad.
im fond of kat-tun as a group.
but im not fond of jin.
but its gonna be a lil sad seeing kat-tun with 5members.
i remember the time when nino was in LA and i saw arashi performed in sc with only 4members. its weird. and its also weird seeing oh-chan singing nino's part in kitto daijoubu.
i wonder what kame feels.
so sad ne?
^_^
im gonna recap what happened this week on my tommorrow's entry.
its gonna be a long one!!

need to go.

ja ne!

dream no more.

2006-10-10T13:00:00.000+08:00

JE boys of the day: arashi
song of the day: send it up = vertical horizon
^_^
at exactly 10:05am today, i received a package! and the postman asked me, "are u expectin a package?" and i said "yes!" and what i had in mind was joanna's package from cebu. and the postman asked me, "from whom are u expectin it?" and i said, "joanna!" and the postman asked me if that person was from singapore... and i was like "omg, is it from yana?" and the postman said, "liyana? yes, its from her." and my fingers were shakin when i touched the package. and i was signing some papers. and i just dont understand the letters coz its blur for me. and when i entered my house... i kept on jumping and shouting. and my bro asked me why and we all opened the package..inside was 2cds. and the other cd was rain's latest japanese album "eternal rain".. and i just kept on babbling... and i just kept on shaking. and i took pics right away coz this is a great moment. and my sis and bro said that i was a lil crazy and i kept on shakin.. wow!! yana!!!!!!!!! this is a dream come true!!u dont know how happy i am!! this morning me and my mom fought about something and i was so depressed and u made me so happy!!! i dont know how to thank you!! i love u so much. and when i come there in sg this december, im gonna treat u to dinner or movies or everywhere for makin me this happy.... love to u, girl. take care
here are the pics!!

rain's album.. 3weeks after it was released in japan... now i got one!! thanks yana!
im so speechless... im just so happy!!
me and the cd. me and my love. and i owe it all to yana!!
the insides.. my hands were shakin when i took this pic.
what a great birthday gifts, yana!!!! im just so happy that i cant help smiling!!! i love yana so much!!!

im gonna go to work!!

ja ne!!
^_^

onsen

2006-10-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

11:32 PM 10/9/2006
JE guy of the day: KAZUNARI NINOMIYA
song of the day: fight song (arashi)
^_^
i just got home from the superfun training.at first i was like, "this is gonna be so boring!!"and i was thinkin that i will be sleepy.then gracie (the super pretty trainer) said that the first activity will be a game. we had 4 rows. 6 person in a row. then she said that u will state ur name and say the things or people u love starting with the first letter of ur first name. and since my name is kathy it will be a "K". and you know what i said? i said, "my name is Kathy and i love KAZUNARI NINOMIYA!" and since i was in the first row, all the people behind me will say what i said. and some people had a hard time sayin it. one girl said, "kazumari mimomiya" and i laughed so hard!!and one guy said, "kazu what? minomino?" and i feel bad coz that was nino's fullname ne? out of the 5members of arashi, nino is the only member with a name (either first or last) that starts with a "k". my sis just told me that i should have said "Kamenishi Kazuya"... ah but i love nino more la!!
and wanna hear more funny thing?
the second activity was thinkin of a place (non-existent or not) that u will sell to gracie. like a place or sanctuary. and then gracie grouped us. i was not with she, trei, yani or sheila. unlucky me. trei and sheila in one group. then she and yani in the other group together!!but!! but!! i ended up with trish!! my batchmate!! i knew her since i started in west. and we were thinkin of a place and when my groupmates (trish, irene, jimmy, dave and rhea) asked me about my ideas.. since i was so japan-oriented i told them about onsen!! onsen=hot springs. and would u believe that they actually chose my idea and they would like to present it!! ahh, onsen!! we drew the onsen, thinkin about prices, benefits and features. then they asked me about the name of the onsen were presenting...then they told me that we can name it "kazunari".. orz, nino again? i suggested aiba-chan or sho-chan's name but they said they like "kazunari" coz it left a big imapact on the other members. so i agreed!! and we named it "Kazunari Hot Springs: Experience the Joy it Brings!"...waah, nino might me be mad if he knew this..naming an onsen after him!! hahahaha. gomen, nino-kun!! and i know that u will never read this!!
^_^
whats nxt? the last activity of the day was just questions but u will answer them truthfully...from ur heart and then u will draw something that represent u. and then u will read ur answers infront of evrybody and show them ur drawing!! here are the questions and my answers which i read infront of everybody.
^_^
Q: who are u?
--> im kathy. im 21. im pessimist and skeptic. i love the Japanese culture. i love basketball. im a jdorama avid watcher. i love arashi. i wanna be a writer but im a nursing undergraduate. i dont wanna go back to school. i love my family. i havent talked to my dad since april. my mom is the most important person in the whole world for me. im a dreamer but my dreams are not comin true.
Q: where are u right now?
--> im in a world where i everybody tells me what to do. im in a world where everybody chooses for me. from my school to my course. and i hate it.
Q: why are u here right now?
--> coz i got no choice.
Q: where will u be if ur not here?
--> i wanna be in a place where i can decide for myself. i havent been using my freewill lately and i wanna use it.
Q: where are u going?
--> my future plans? im going to japan! im going to have a great life. i will release all my poems and haikus in the future that ive written over the years. im gonna be a journalist. im gonna be a doctor too... for free. and not because i wanna be noble but because i wanna do it. and i wanna do these things and its gonna be my decisions these time.
^_^then i presented my drawing which is the kanji character for "koi" which means love.and i told all of them that it represents how i love to know more. ive studied many cultures and i wanna know more... and im gonna start with the japanese culture which im so fond of and u know why rightto?these are the pics from the training today!
^_^
have u watched news zero? tonight sho will be in there. he's the special reporter during mondays. have u seen him in the previous episode? he's hair is black again. he dyed it black again and its straight!!! look at the pics. and he really looked younger here. compared to the old hairstyle where he looked old. this is like sho in 2004. he looked so young ne?
^_^
lookin back, i havent got a bad life. but its so tiring to live ne? seems like no matter how u laugh, its not still enough...something's missing..that even the things that can make u happy doesnt matter anymore... im getting too sappy again ne?
^_^
11:59 PM 10/09/2006
thats the time and im gonna go..im gonna watch arashi cm's now!!
oyasuminasai!!
'^_^'
before i go these are the pics of the day!!

ja ne!!

koi?

2006-10-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

JE boy of the day: oh-chan!ridaa!captain!
song of the day: hitomi no naka no galaxy
^_^
everybody know im a pessimist. i always think negative. but...but... when the atmosphere is happy, i always try to be happy too. this girl (i dont wanna name her). she's such a 1000% pessimist. she always find mistakes in u. she always ruin the happy mood by sayin things. most of it are bad things. and she is such a "miss-know-it-all". everybody should look at the mirror before lookin ay others ne? i hate the way she brags about some things. and i hate that she always says things that embarasses people. such a witch XD. maybe this person should get married ne? old hag!! hahahahahaha. im so mean now. coz im pissed whenever i think of this person. im hopin that i will not see her anymore. coz that would be disaster. 200000% disaster. because...because.. i always fight for what i believe in. no matter what people think or say. im crazy most of the times (ask sheila, gene or em!) but i never ever did the things she did. which is so lame. and to think she has this different upbringing? enough of the old witch.
^_^
i saw yukie nakama just now. "ring 0" just ended. im so scared ne! looking at those scenes. or those creepy girls are so scary. and thats so scary!!
^_^
batista should win and defeat king booker to get that belt again ne? i hope that batista can kick booker's ass. and charmelle's as well. batista gambatte!! i wish i can watch no mercy! fatal 4-way can be so great sometimes. i dont care about finlay or lashley or booker! batista should win! and i hope john cena wins too! ohh. i remember i hate edge so much! and im happpy genX and cena kicked murdock's ass. hahaha. edge is so lame la! arggh. the smackdown thing is so near! oct21. and im not gonna come coz the tickets are sold=out!! i wanna see cena!!!!!! im his fan for 2years now!! and i havent seen him,,, so sad?
^_^
joseph got a bad game today. shooting 5/21 is bad ne? i guess he's still adjusting? its so so sad that he cant perform well. i hope that he cant be like this. coz i know that he's dream is being on the pro's game... yeo da man!! gambatte!!
^_^
love? koi? ai? why does evrybody is so absorbed in it? im so in love right now but i cant. i cant help it. ive written this in multiply. but lovin a person who doesnt give a damn about u is so sad. as ive said, im happy he's happy but that left me heartbroken too. T_T
why cant everyone reciprocated each other's feelings? maybe im just so ignorant about these? but talking about love in ur blog is kinda boring ne?chotto!! matte!!koi? i should not talk about it. coz somebody just told me that talkin about it in ur own blog is lame ne? i wonder why,,, she told me, "kath, when ur in love, or when ur heartbroken, dont shout it at ur blog, coz people gets annoyed with that!" to the person whose reading this, are u annoyed? daijoubu desu ka? are u asleep?arrghh... so im stopping. not talk about love. lets talk about what i ate today. i ate... i forgot. i ate too many foods that i forgot about them. im eating a lot of breadpan lately. thanks to kharen and Xiang Qin who introduced me to breadpan. and im eating a lotta siopao lately. im eating donuts a lot too.. choco-butternut or strawberry-filled but not boston creme or the ever yucky bavarian donuts.
^_^
i just realized that i havent wrote "arashi" in this blog entry ne? and thats rare. i remember it coz at that moment, "lucky man" is playing ne? im such a dork sometimes. coz i did this. hahaha.

before!
after!
isnt this fun?
im sleepy! gotta sleep!! thank goodness that the last song im gonna heard is sho's "unti unti"!!!! ^_^
the time now is 11:24 PM 10/8/2006
oyasuminasai!
'^_^'

last night's entry and today as well

2006-10-07T08:27:00.000+08:00

this was last night's entry.
^_^
JE boy of the day: aiba masaki
song of the day: still "itsuka no summer" lolz.
^_^
my earphones just gave up on me. and i dont have enough money to buy a new one. that earphones cost around 1000 bucks ne. and im savin a lot of money for arashi cds and i cant spend 1000bucks just for earphones. and im also savin a lot of money for airfare for my sg trip in december. and whenever i looked at what i saved, i usually eat at expensive resto or buy things i dont need. im just so impulsive at times. and i often regret it. can someone keep my money so that i cant spend it around? i save money,mainly for arashi. so that if they will have a concert here then i will be able to buy premium tickets. like the ones in the frontline. near the stage. this comin december, i really wanna watch ohno's butai that will run on december 20-27. that will be so amazing. i wanna see ohno perform on stage!! and i also wanna watch jun's movie, "boku wa imotou koi suru" which will be shown 2months from now(not sure). i also wanna watch sho's movie, "kisarazu cat's eye: world series" this comin october 28. the single was being played in the radios in japan. the single that the 5guys did. bussan, bambi, ani, master and ucchie! i wanna see bambi again ne!! im so happy i got the kce tv series but wouldnt it be great if i can watch the movie as well? and also bout sho, i havent watched "honey and clover"... so sad ne? i do hope and pray that nino's hollywood movie that was directed by clint eastwood will be shown here! that will be so amazing!! i wanna watch nino badly...

i got so many plans but so lil time and so lil money. i wish i was born japanese. i wish i was born in japan. i told sheila those words th other day. and sheila told me i was a freak.. hahahaha. going to japan will so great ne? and thats one of my goal. oh and about the kce: world series single... "somebody" bought me a copy in japan but i cant say yes to it coz im so embarrased... thats gonna be so embarassing ne?

well, let me tell u something...and this is not as.s lickin! first, yana, who did my blog skin and whom i consider a good friend... i asked her to buy me arashi cds in sg. thats why i wanna go to sg. to meet that amazing person. that treats and loves u unconditionally. that person who always sms me just to let me know im appreciated. and will never get mad coz i cannot sms back sometimes. a person whom u havent meet in person but feels like uve been friends for years... thats yana.

im so glad i have my blogs. u know why? coz i can rant here. whenever i can, whatver words i use. its doesnt matter. no one prohibits me. and whats important is that through this blog,, i met lotsa good people. i met janis in multiply then we became "instant friends" through blogspot. though oceans, seperates me and janis coz she's in california, i know that she's a good person. i remember the first time we chatted in ym, i had fun. she's so fun. she's like me. maybe she's my long lost twin ne? and read this, we like and love the same guys, dramas and songs. we love edison chen, we both adore yamapi. "nobuta wo produce" moved us. and seishoun mi amigo is our favorite!! she's comin home a week from now and im dead excited. janis, its enough that u bring urself safe and sound, thats all i need. and dont ever forget our promise ne? the "the grudge2" date?

another amazing person is joanna, i met joanna in multiply, and we will always pmed each other everyday for the last 2months. and whenever i opened my multiply, i know that joanna left a message... we always talked about boys, doramas and sho. she's in cebu and she always makes me feel better. and she always make me laugh. oh and we got a secret that i cannot tell.... joanna, please dont get tired of understanding me ne?

i met a lot of good people through the net. my aiya gang friends are the bomb. sharon, sab, bad, ryao, efa, oviya, viv, nix, aerial. everybody. from hk to sg to china to thailand. all my love to my crazy aiya friends.

i met kitty from amnos.net one of the coolest girl i met. kitty, where are u? and i also met eri who is a sho fan as well. great people, great site!
i met gem, teen and yori in junified. great people. i hope that our "junified" moment will last 4ever!

i met my good friend, cat, in tsinoy.comcat who always support me in my dorama craziness...thanks for all the jdoramas.

i met sarahpotz and sungie in aibakaland. these cool mods are my guide in aibakaland, and i adore this girls.

i met a lot of people. and i know i will meet more. i do hope that even though oceans seperates us, we will always keep in touch with each other. love to all my i-net friends. take care and pm me ok?

i got a good mood today, i hope no one breaks it.

news!news! im gonna go to training again next week. with trei, she, sheila, and my beloved, yani. this is like my nth training in west. and the time is freakin 2pm-10pm. monday to friday. so im gonna be blogging 1pm in the afternoon next week then. and im gonna more zombie-ish than before. how in the hell am i gonna do this? my training before was 6am-2pm, and i like to keep that but i got no choice. guess beggars cant really choose ne? im so sleepy while im writing this... 9:06 PM 10/6/2006 thats the time according to notepad coz i just pressed F5.,, and im writing my blog entry in a notepad coz i will upload this tommorow which is the moment while ur reading this. does that make sense at all? im just bored again... and thats because im waiting for itunes to convert "pika**nchi double" from mpeg to m4v. ah, im so sleepy ne... and a 31.2 mb is 3hours to convert i wonder why? all my other videos says file cannot be converted. so lame la. just this video. just one freakin video. im so so so so so sleepy... but i will still wait for that video. just one more hour and im gone sleeping.... zzzzzzzzz... ^_^i wonder what sho is doing at this time of the day? what is aiba doin too? i bet that nino is playing his nintendo... hahahah...

what do u think about applying for a higher position? im just so confused about "that" right now!

edc's 26th birthday is on saturday, khymm's bday is on sunday. my sis, kath, is on oct20. too many birthdays. too many parties to attend.. except for edc's bday, of course.

i got nuttin to write anymore... ah! ARASHI!! what about them? oh, itunes done ne? the time is 9:28 PM 10/6/2006.. gotta stop writing!!

ja ne!!
oyasuminasai!!
^_^

this is today's entry!

JE guy of the day: sho sakurai
song of the day: yume demo ii kara
^_^

did u know that the trip to ongpin last monday was not successful but we had fun. and im sharin the pics where my xiangqing and i ate. at a chinese resto where me and xq are the only ones not chinese. see?

-this is the chinese maki soup. does it looks yummy ne?
gene doesnt know this. she might get mad if she saw this ne?

xq's food. btw, xq and gene is only the same.
my food. really umai!
the juices. mine's mango. xq's watermelon, umai!!

^_^
OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU, EDISON CHEN!
to the guy who owns my heart forever!
happy 26th birthday!
im gonna go ne!

ja ne!
^_^

dark desires

2006-10-06T12:47:00.000+08:00

JE boy of the day: aiba masaki
song of the day: itsuka no summer

^_^
i hate the idea of being helpless.i wanna go to ohno's butai in december. i wanna watch "kce:world series" on october 28.i wanna watch "boku wa imouto koi suru" on its opening day. i wanna watch "yellow tears". i wanna see arashi perform live in person in shounen club or in music station or in hey!hey!hey!. i wanna stay in japan for a week and shop at shibuya 109. i wanna eat authentic ramen in a authentic ramen house in japan. i wanna know why my dad is neglecting us. i wanna know when is the showing of edc's movie "the grudge 2" here in the phils.i wanna know when am i gonna have an arashi album.

guess a "princess" like me cannot get all the things she wants ne?

i envy my sis so much. she got a package the other day. it contains a cd with miyavi vids. a miyavi concert and a hyde movie. "last quarter" is the title of the movie and i love it. gogo yabari was there. remember kill bill? and also the guy in stand up was there. i keep on forgetting his name. the one in gokusen as well. he was the one in kce too. ahh i forgot his name ne? i like the movie so go watch it.

edc's bday is tomorrow. u-chan's bday was yesterday. my dad's 50th bday was yesterday as well. dont wanna talk about it. btw, all edc fans, are we celebrating edc's bday or what?

i adore AIBA. so much right now. and im listening to itsuka no summer 6-8times a day. that guy is so adorable.

bbye.
oh i mean, ja ne!
*^_^*

nikki

2006-10-04T11:25:00.000+08:00

i just read the "toys 'r' us" trip of aiba and nino. so so so great. one of the funniest thing i read. aiba said nino looked happy with that doraemon toy in his hands. and they both bought dragonball mini toys. and they both ended up picking the same design.. aiba said theyre so compatible.. and what i loved the most was the part where aiba said that nino accompanied him in a toy store on his birthday. and nino bought him 3things. wow!! im adoring the 2 of them right now ne!! ive always been drawn to aiba's sensitivity and nino's unique attitude.. waahh. im so into the 2 of them right now. i promise, upon the grave of my dead cat, that i will name my first son "NINO" or "NINOMIYA". thats a yakusoku...

one of my cats died yesterday. her name is neko. so sad ne? i feel so bad when i found her dead. she was 2weeks old... ahh. so sad ne...

and i just ended a friendship with a girl right now. she's such a nuisance anyways. i really thought she's my tomodachi but i think she will never change... why does some people (like her) cant accept that some people can have a lil shiawase and koi... ur just jealous coz somebody's getting koi and ur alone.. busu! im so annoyed with u!! and if ever ur in a bad mood, dont throw it to other people... i remember one time, u were in a bad mood and i was singin an arashi song and u said. "kathy, ryuusei!" and u know what? i was happy coz i know that when a person is mad and she shouted at u and u ignore that person she will be even more mad. hahahaha. i ignored u, busu. and dont pretend someone ur not ne. i know when people lies. binbou, get a life... and dont pretend someone ur not. coz i know and "we" noticed it...i know u read my blog so here's one for u!

i am pissed so im gonna go. ja ne!!

oh before i go here's something for janis..

janis: "nikki" is like a blog. J-WEB which is under JE. is like a site where u can read JE boys blogs. Tackey and Tsubasa, NewS, KANJANI8, SMAP, ARASHI, KAT-TUN updates this once in a while. nino's nikki named "game nikki" is a very funny blog and its the best one coz he updates it everyday! yamapi's nikki is funny as well... unfortunately, only registered users can read or have the access to this blogs.. so im reading the translations of this nikkis from different sites. yamapi got a separate blog from NewS.. nino, jun and ohno got separate blogs from AJiarashi and Uraarashi. sho doesnt have a personal blog but he updates in ajiarashi,as well as aiba. though ohno never updates in his personal blog(which is empty) he also updates in ajiarashi. and jun updated twice only for his personal blog. nino is on his 620+ entry. so its almost for 2years.. so great ne? one of the best translation page for the JE nikki's is in my links, under arashi, its "binan no nikki". you can find SMAP, KANAJANI8, NewS, Tackey and Tsubasa, KAT-TUN, and arashi there. yamapi's nikki is not included there. the translation for yamapi's nikki is in.... uhhm, i forgot where. i will post it later. sorry. im so unforgetful.. sorry!!

ja ne!

i know that girl(the "ex-friend") doesnt read this far so this entry is for smart people.. bwahahaha.im a lil dumb, am i?
i know that some people cant understand nihonggo. and i would like to apologise if i used few words in japanese. so here's the translation of the words.. this is like the japanese words of the day..
-yakusoku --> promise
-shiawase --> happiness
-koi --> love
-tomodachi --> friend
-busu --> the best translation is "ugly bitch!"
-ryussei! --> "shut up!"
-binbou --> poor girl
gomen ne (sorry) for using such nihonggo words. i know theyre mean. so mean of me ne? gomen ne!! im just applying what i learn from my own nihonggo tutorials. which im slowly progressing.

ja ne!!

kio tsukette ne,minna!

sad tango part2 or 3? im not sure!

2006-10-02T15:58:00.000+08:00

did u know that rain released a new japanese album recently? its called eternal rain. released 2weeks ago, i think. and u know whats included in there? sad tango. my fave, sad tango. and as a bonus, there is also a english version of it. now, thats what i called an album!! i cant wait to have that album ne? i used to be a big fan of rain.. i first saw him early last year, performing in mtv asia aid, singing "its RAINing." then 2months after that his drama, "fullhouse" was aired. i guess i got tired of seeing him when he's suddenly everywhere. but i love his songs. and i got a copy of his first concert in korea. sad tango, i do, its RAINing, to you... i love every song. whats amazing about rain is that: he is korean but he sings in japanese and english, he will perform in madison square garden in N.Y., he's in TIME mag's 50 most influential people in 2005, he got pepsi ads with christina aguilera, he poses for international clothing brands, he dances so great for his height and he is recently so popular ne? ..

about sad tango, i remember one guy. kinda thinking of smsin' him but i...cant. heard he got a girl. hope he's happy. i miss him. but i know i got no right. so sad ne? crazy as it may seem, but i suddenly wanna talk to him.waahh. enough.

i dont why people hate me.. now i added people in my blocked list on multiply. the total now is 12 people... so many ne? cause they always pm me. telling me i stole this and stole that. i always give the right people the credits. and i didnt do anything wrong. so i dont know what to do with them ne?

whats with people nowadays? i hate nosy people. and "e-pal" people. please. just spare me the act. i cant take it. i hate people shouting at me. telling me what to do..u know what i mean? some people should really get a life!

and i know im mean. im super mean. coz im a lil pissed off. maybe i should listen to arashi right now. coz that might cure me. or i should watch g no arashi then. sho said something about "aiba sugoroku" and "g no arashi" in his latest entry in arashi's nikki "ajiarashi"... does he hate the idea that what fans like about arashi is the ever funny "aiba sugoroku" and "g no arashi"? i cant understand him ne!! everybody should read their asian tour nikki. the 5guys always update. so i suggest that all the fans should read them.

im gonna go to ongpin today (hopefully!) with xiangqing, whose perfectly fine after scaring the hell outta me the other day. this "lakad" was postponed for how many times, gene? 5times? i hope we can do this today ne?

yosssh!!i gotta go!!

ja mata ne!!

uchiwa

2006-09-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

somebody asked me about uchiwa.she asked me if arashi will go in the philippines, what will u write in ur uchiwa. my answer is...."i really dont know."i havent thought about that coz recently they cancelled the thai concert. and thats buggin me coz if they will have a concert in the philippines and they will cancel it, how would u think i feel?i feel sorry for all the thai fans. the concert will still be on. but only golf-mike and friends. no arashi. and its all because of that commotion bout the coup. johnny's management is so protective of arashi ne? will they ever go here in the phils? its so depressing ne? many people are depressed of that cancellation. im not goin to the concert but im still sad bout it.

about the uchiwa, i think i will write one of the ff:
1. "sho-chan's no.1 fan"
2. "i love arashi"
3. "aiba-chan rocks my world!"
4. "thanks for comin here!"
5. "nino lover!"
6. "oh-chan makes me happy!"
7. "matsujun rocks!"
8. "thanks for makin our dream come true!"
-i think i need to choose one coz if i make 8 uchiwas, i will not be able to see arashi ne? hahaha.
too much ahead to think about this. hahaha.

about the storm, all people are still in "recuperation" mode. everybody's cleaning the street. power is back last night in my place (cavite). but still no water. im so glad that im here in makati, where power and water is on. minna, we can get through this ne? gambatte!!

recently, im so addicted with reading yamapi's nikki. so funny. i love nino's nikki. but im liking yamapi's nikki as well. the "sleeping in underwear" thing was so funny ne. and the im concern about golf-mike will make u love him more. aaahh. yamapi!! ken-ken, katkat loves u !! hahahaha. janis might wring my neck!

i wonder what happen to my xiangqing? she's on "mia" mode as of the moment. she's absent and she's not smsing me back. gene-chan, u alrighty? i hope u are. im so worried about her. coz her bf and her family doesnt know where she is. gene-chan, im majide worried. pls sms me back! or answer our calls. onegai!!

janis: i really dont like storms as well. im so scared of the lightning. and the sky rumbling. take care there, ok?

ja ne!

raging storm

2006-09-29T17:35:00.000+08:00

im happy im ok.
i had a hard time going home last night.
i rode the bus, fx, pedicab and a jeepney just get home safe.
so so terrifying.
but im ok.
yesterday was the most terrifying day of my life.
i was on the 34th floor of exportbank plaza when the typhoon, "milenyo" suddenly washed over metro manila.
and i was so scared coz i can feel that my table was going up and down.
and a piece of wood was banging on our glass window.
and i was so afraid that the glass windows might break.
the air pressure in the 34th floor was so high.
and my aunts kept on calling me.
they told me that my siblings in cavite wasnt answering their phones and they were dead worried.
and i kept on calling kath and my bros but theyre not answering their phones and i was so worried even though i was in a life-threatening situation as well.
i talked to louie, my baby bro, and told me they were ok.
they got no electricity, no water.
and i was so relieved to know they were ok.
there were many trees, posts and billboards on the street.
one car in Mia rd. was smashed by a billboard, killing the driver and the passengers as well.
our backyard was a total mess. and or antennas was destroyed as well.
our plants are all flying.
some houses got no roofs.
and in niog, there was a knee-high flood.
were in a mess right now.
but this morning, the sun was shining high.
givin us hope.
skies are not gray anymore but pink and blue.

im hoping this will never happen again.
and i wish for safety of all the people i know here, in the Philippines.
God bless. we can get through this.

se7en

2006-09-27T11:47:00.000+08:00

INSTRUCTIONS:List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words or even if they’re not any good, but they must be songs you’re really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your blog along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they’re listening to.

kathy's comments: ok. janis tagged me to do this. and i will try to not post all arashi songs coz at the moment arashi is the only artist i listen to. lolz. ^_^

1. right back to u by arashi --> i couldnt get this outta my head. i love the dance in the iza!now concert and i love the outfit as well. i love the song so much. right now.

2. yu dao by fang xiang yan --> these chinese love song is in my head these days. i already memorized the lyrics ne? and it is inlcluded in the iswak ost which is so great.. so u better listen to it ne?

3. signal by KAT-TUN --> oh, did i say that i really dont like jin akinishi? but this KAT-TUN song is filling my head. i recently got a copy of their album and the video for signal and i like it so much. so there.

4. itsuka no summer by aiba masaki --> happy? well, this solo is the only arashi solo that keeps on playing on my mp3 and itunes. i adore aiba-chan so much ne? yeap!! sugoi!! sugoi!!

5. daite senorita by yamashita tomohisa ---> ohh!! yamapi!! kon-kon!! who wouldnt love that song ne? its a very good dance song. and i love yamapi as well.

6. pika**nchi double by arashi --> i like all the versions of this song. the piano ver of nino, and the shortened live ver. all the versions is so so great. and its always playing in my head. i got the copy of all the live performances of pika**nchi double coz i love the song so much.

7. kimi ni negai wo by miyavi --> this song just rock!! miyavi's guitar playing is the best!! everybody should listen to miyavi!!

In turn, I tag the following people:
yana, sab, bad, kharen, clara, gene, sheila

ja ne!! have fun!

nonsense. forgive me.

2006-09-27T08:01:00.000+08:00

why do i adore arashi?
i really dont know why.
but whenever:
-i watch g no arashi or mago mago arashi
-i saw them perform
-i listen to their songs
-i listen to tbeir radio programs
-or see their pictures
i feel happy. that i can smile.
i feel somewhat, calm.
they always makes me feel better.
whenever i feel down, i just watch "g no arashi" and all my worries and sadness are gone.
i even laugh alone at their baka-ness.
i really dont like them at first.
i just liked jun back then.
but when u listen to their songs or watch them perform, u would learn to like the 5 guys as a whole.
ive always been a jrock fanatic.
i hate jpop. it is somewhat (for me) too shabby. too "showbiz".. too "popish"..but i just appreciate jpop so much right now. some arashi songs are to pop-ish but i love all of them.
im not obssessed or addicted to them (as what my bro says.).
i just adore them. and my adoring to them was not the same when i adored f4.
yeap, i looked up to edison chen.
but i adore arashi so much.
coz they make me smile. anytime.
and recently, i just noticed that sho-chan is singing high notes ne? and thats so great!! yatta!!! hahaha. in track13:silver ring (arashic), in aozora pedal and track 3: natsu no owari ni omou koto (aozora pedal single)!!!
sho-chan is improving!! gambatte, sho-chan!!

btw, "cdg no arashi" will be released in dvd soon.. on november. oh but the code thing will be the problem. i wish they will release the asian version. hahaha.
and jun just said in the korean festival that he will start shooting hyd2 after the tour. and thats gonna be in october!!(gene-chan, trei-sama, thats good news, ne? lol) i got this info from htt://arashi.vox.com so arigatou!!

oh and one person told me that my blog is so "arashi-ish" and that she's tired of reading my blog because she's tired of reading about arashi. well, girl, let me tell u this. i really dont care if u dont read my blog. its not my loss. hahaha. mean people like u should get-a-life! ur so obssessed with boys anyways! so get ur slutty eyes away from my blog, ok? she even told me that people is irritated with my arashi-blog writing or my nihonggo-entries!. who is these "people" anyways? care to tell me who they are? THIS IS MY BLOG. and i can write whatver i can here. i own this blog. i have all the right to write anything i want. so back-off, arashi-dissers!! losers!!!!!!!!!!

i really dont understand people sometimes. maybe because im bad at comprehending. or im just so dense. i dunno. sometimes people tells me im so hard to understand. but i cant understand them as well. hahaha.
"hito wa hito, jibun wa jibun"
"people are people, u are urself"
(lines from "fight song")
i have my own personality and upbringing and people cant take that away from me. im so hard to understand coz im moody. and people tells me im mayabang but im not. its just that, its my nature. its the way i talk or eat. recently, i started eating siopao without spoon or fork but i still dont like eating bavarian donuts. but im willing to change if its for the better. but bavarian donuts are the worst. next is boston creme donuts. hahaha. so lame of me. honestly, im so picky when it comes to food. i eat a lot. but not all kinds of food. i hate veggies. and liver. or fishes. i may die young because all i eat is meat. chicken meat, pork meat, beef... thats why i always eat at the same fast foods and restaurants.

do u love challenges? like the ones that concern ur life? hahaha. not really. challenges like swimming with dolphins, water rafting for the first time or bungee jumping for 5times or ride the space shuttle roller coaster at 'enchanted kingdom' for 6times. hahaha.im just so bored thats why im writing this nonsense entry. im actually downloading some hyd scans i havent read. some in the margaret series. oh and i badly wanted the "boku wa imotou koi suru" scans. does anybody knows where to dl them? its so twincest daw!! hahaha. jun-kun's roles are so not like him ne?

did u know that i rewatched the whole hana yori dango series yesterday? yeap! the whole nine episodes. and i fell for jun-kun again ne?!! jun is so attractive. and im envious of all the people who already saw him in person. ive read this girl's blog and she wrote that he was 5inches away from aiba!! wwwwaaaahhhhh!! and that nino smiled at her. so so lucky people. and my only wish is to go to japan right now. and when a fan writes that sho is so so so sexy upclose, i feel so unlucky. she even wrote that pics and videos doesnt justified the way sho sakurai really looks in person. how lucky. how unlucky i am. i even dont have any arashi albums yet. just 30videos, some episodes of mma and gna, 20cms, and 100+ mp3s. but im not satisfied with that.. why it is so hard to buy an original album of arashi? why is it so hard to look for arashi stuffs? i hope that nxt year they will have a concert here. coz i made a bet with my family that arashi will be so popular in the phils in 2007. so lame but i made it already. too late to get it back.

actually, i just realized that 25 songs of arashi had already played in my itunes while i write this nonsense entry. the 14songs from arashic album had already been played. and i just realized that i didnt skipped any song this time. usually, i dont listen to "raise ur hands". and write now, jun's "la familia" is playing. and guess whats the next track in my crazy itunes? "konseki" by nino!! and bfore "lafamilia" is "a.ra.shi" (from one concert 2005)..so many arashi songs la!!!

this entry is so long but its actually nonsense. i got so many problems that i cannot share with anyone. i wish i can talk to someone without thinking anything. without being shy or being scared that, that person may judge me. people can be so judgmental sometimes. i hope they will just listen to my rants. oh i remember, my dad didnt remembered my birthday last week. didnt call or sms me. he just ignored it. i just wanna hate him right now but i cant. if ur in my place, what would u do? or what am i supposed to do? cry? rant like this? shout?im turning more nonsense so im gonna stop.ive finished dl the hyd scans and im gonna see it now. the song right now is "na!na!na!" from the "kitto daijoubu" single!!

hope that the people who read this didnt get their eyes hurt ne?
gomen ne!!

im just in the mood to write now!!

ja ne!!

why i adore this 5 guys?

2006-09-25T15:35:00.000+08:00

reasons why u should be a fan of this 5 adoring guys!!

nino:
-cause he is so energetic.
-his comments is so unique and devilish!(according to sho-kun!)
-his love answers are unbelievable.
-he loves video games just like me.
-he can play the guitar and piano.
-u will never be bored around him.
-u would definitely adore him once u read his nikki.
-who wouldnt love him in "stand up!"?
-i love his high-pitched voice. especially when he's excited!!

ridaa:
-he appreciates art.
-he can paint, mold clay, and draw. wow O.O
-his voice is so great.
-his love answers are hilarious.
-he looks out for the other 4guys.
-he is funny.
-his "oretachi no song" (and sho's as well!) will make ur stomach ache coz of laughing.
-his comments are sudden but it will make u laugh! remember the mago mago arashi freetalk about "who would u like to go some place this summer?" and he said nino. and nino said he wanna go bbq with matsujun. and the arashi love triangle began.. hahaha.

aiba:
-he is baka!!
-he had been in the philippines!
-he doesnt seem to know his effects on girls and that makes him so adorable.
-he had undergone surgery for his lung problems and keeps on apologizing to arashi for making them suffer (coz of some extra work coz of his absence) when he was the one who suffered the most. how sensitive this guy can get?
-i wish he can continue playing sax!
-he is wonderful and he makes the atmosphere so alive.
-his eyes are the most adorable among arashi
-his "itsuka no summer" dance is to die for.
-his letter to arashi made me cry. he is so sensitive. and he isnt afraid to tell his feelings to others (arashi)
-coz he love animals!!

matsujun:
-he is a gentleman
-his love answers were realistic and the best ones.
-he loves food (umai! sugoi!)
-he never fails to make me laugh with that stocking-in-head-with-brandy-in-hand in g no arashi (aiba sugoroku!)
-his acting is the best.-he was the first arashi member i knew and loved.
-who wouldnt love "shin sawada", "momo" and "doumyouji tsukasa"?
-coz he was the first no.1 fan of sho-chan!!

sho:
-he finished school at keio (so prestigious ne?)
-he write raps so good.
-he admits he's scared of some things and it is shown in his face.
-he love kids!!!!!
-he hugged aiba in 24hourterebi in 2004 after that heart-warming letter.
-he is smart and a fast learner. remember that mandarin class of arashi?
-although his love answers are so great, it seems he is not real. but i still love him.
-he understands and speaks english. i think he can write too.
-aside from being kakkoi outside, i think he is sensitive too.
-he looks like a bad boy,but he is so nice!!!
-on mago mago arashi, when he accidentally destroyed the cutting thing with oba-chan, he seem so mad at himself. and thats how he is.
-he seem so afraid to be caught with that apple in hand which nino picked from the tree. nino sets up sho. and he looked really worried that oji-chan might be mad at him.
-when he was a guest in a show, with that english-talking robot, he swallowed the mic. so adorable.
-he looks out for NINO when they crosses the street. drinks with AIBA after work, have fun with RIDAA in oretachi no song, and watched JUN's butai.
-who wouldnt love bambi? sho in kimono!!!
-he cannot draw. but he tries too. the g no arashi episode "ohno vs. sho drawing" was so funny. "sho, that is a snowman!"
-he wants to win and dont wanna lose. esp. in that mago mago arashi episode vs. jun. the looking for sweets thing. and the rowing competition.
-he sucks at sports but most of his projects concern sports. his butai "a beautiful game" revolves around soccer. his drama and movie, "kisarazu cat's eye" revolves around baseball.and that g no arashi episodes and magomago arashi that concerns sports. he is the worst in arashi (in sports) but still he's so adorable.
-because he is sho sakurai. thats all i need.

*im thinking for a lot more reasons and will post it soon!!*
got a boring day!!
so im doing this.

janis: bon voyage! will wait for ur return!
i hope the best for sempai and kharen!gambatte!!
no, gambaremasu!!

ja ne!

what sho did.

2006-09-23T07:47:00.000+08:00

have u heard what sho did?
its in the hk mags.
its in sakurai daily.
in apple daily.
in http://shosakurai.multiply.com
in http://latormenta.multiply.com
apparently, he went to a very expensive drinking bar with 2 ntv co-workers.
spent company's money with a bunch of pretty girls.
took out expensive sushi.
for me, i really dont care what sho does.
thats his life. i was a lil hurt by that news.
but i 50% believed it.
the date of the said drinking session was august 30th.
birthday of matsujun. and if im not mistaken, they performed 3 concerts that day.
so i think the news was just rumours, ne?
i dunno what to believe.
++-++

was so damn tired yesterday.
stand up like for all day long.
and i was a lil moody when im tired ne?
so im a lil grumpy.
sorry to all i neglected.
i had super so much fun at the party last night.
supppppeeeerrr fun.
and i would like to share some pics ne?

first birthday is my birthday cake.
all pink, ne?
love it so much!!

++-++
this are the pics last night from the party!!
happy 1st anniversary to our transcription team!!!

my PAS, shelz and me. my eyes looked so sleepy coz i am. and i looked so ugly, ne?
half of this pic are bags!!! lolz!
again, the bags!!
at the restroom. we were fooling around. AGAIN. sheila, me, em, gene!!
they were talkin! but they know i was capturin them!! ahhaha!!
my boiz, mike and tonite!! lookin so "mature"!!! lolz!!
lourj is so pretty here, ne? i love her top!!
gene showing off her new phone!! samsung rocks ne? xiangqing, i miss u!!
ex-top team leaders. ms. myrna and toby (my former bosses)
arvin, tonite, mike, imee, mhey-ee, tere, lui and ava!f4 ne? hahaha, sempai!! what are u doin?
jeff, ellen, tin and imee!!
the new couple!! im so happy for them! kharen and my sempai, rice!!
outside!! tonite, arvin, ai and roy!!
decorating duo!! trei and katz!! gummy bears rock our world! especially the pink ones!! japanese pose, ne!! sugoi!! sugoi!!
her curly hair!! she's turning taiwanese!! gene!!
kenji-kun, mike and tonite.. neckties rock their worlds!
at that start of the party, moi boss, andus!! gena and sheila!! the decorating team rocks!!

i gotta go!!

post more later.

and please be safe. keji-kun was "holdapped" twice yesterday!!

kio tsukette ne, minna!!

ja ne!!

right back to u

2006-09-22T07:56:00.000+08:00

some people needs to look at the mirror.
and ask their selves whats wrong with them.
i met mah girls last night.
and i hate this one girl.
leeeeccchhhh.
come on, get a life.
flirt, bitch, asshole.
damn. im so mad,
100% bad influence.
sex maniac.
hate this kind of people.
i hate her so much!!!
arrggghhhh.
dont ever steal my friends away!!
i hate her voice.
i hate everything about her.

and she's influencing one of my closest friends.
ha, get a life!
u bitch!!
sorry for being so freakin mad.
--++

i post this last may 19, 06
and i want people to read it again.
wrote this when i was freakin bored..
and i want to remind myself that this is my perception.

look on a brighter side,its poignant and surreal.
eternal hope does not exist
its on the mind of a sicko
pretendin people whose guts are overrated
fake feelings unveiled
freakin honesty destroys the calm
of a very peaceful place inside me
hurtful ideas and vanished promises
left over to the other side
where u are is where i wanna be
but the fuck*in emotions is being hindered
by the sudden gush of painful reality
brighter side, u mean?
its an illusion created by romantic people
who dont understand the meaning of survival
unfair and complicated is what i crack up
letting u knoe that fairness is a dream that cannot be achieved in a very unfair world.
love me u said?
love is a whirled perception of the ones who cannot hold back the burden of being alone.
the ones who want to escape the reality of the dawning of an unsure future...

see how pessimistic and skeptic i am?
sorry for being like this.
i got stars to do.
silver stars.
im on the "decoration commitee" and i need to do silver and blue stars!
so kakkoi ne?

need to go.

ja ne!!

yu shu

2006-09-21T07:52:00.000+08:00

i was with yu shu in the bus this morning.
and i was so shy.
we talked. he talked most of the time.
and i keep on nodding.
i wish he could kiss me again.
hahaha.
nonsense.
and i was really surprised when i saw him.
he was the first one to approached me.
and he told me some things that i can barely understand coz i was looking at his face..
so lame of me ya?
+++-++
last night, i went home with kenji and mike.
kenji told me some things that i really dont know how to respond to.
theyre so nice and kind.

ja ne!

just one wish

2006-09-20T08:23:00.000+08:00

my main wish for my birthday didnt came true.
so sad ne?
wish he just called or smsed me.
so sad.
and he's my dad.

how can he forgot?

....
just startled and hurt.

reasons why i love sho sakurai ne!

2006-09-19T17:48:00.000+08:00

http://youtube.com/watch?v=m3VNYGZzQqU
am i deaf or sho said "aishteiru too!" to the girl!!
sho flirting with a girl and vice versa!
hahaha.
sho sho sho sho sho!!
arrgghh!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WOmZolwdC3g&mode=related&search=
sho cooking eggs!! kawaii ne!!
he cant cook eggs properly!! one thing where i can beat him!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0DkCwaldmCI
dont u love them in red? hahaha.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=agRla0DL0bE&mode=related&search=
nino sets up sho!!
bad nino!! sho looks innocent ne? hahaha.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xhLswYVJPZQ&mode=related&search=
so so so kawaii ne? i laughed so hard.
if i can have sho sakurai as a birthday gift today, i can die tomorrow!! ahhahaha.
miss him and arashi so much!!!

ja ne!

arigatou, minna!

2006-09-19T16:56:00.000+08:00

my birthday is special this year!
thanks to all the people who made me happy this past year.
and im thanking God coz He gave me one more year.

to all who sent sms, emails, and pms and to all who called me (from the here, from singapore, malaysia and to all parts of the world,,,,
HONTOU NI ARIGATOU!
i got many great friends, and i thank u all.
to the crazy 3 parties i had, thanks to all the people who went.
made me so appreciated and loved.

arashi is one of the reason why im happy this year.
so im thanking the 5 guys from arashi.
jun,nino,aiba,ohno and sho.
although they will not read this.
hahaha.
so crazy ne?
wanna know how my day went?
1am= i watched one episode of "stand up!", "hana yori dango", kisarazu cat's eye" and "gokusen".
3:30am= slept.
6:45am= woke up coz of an sms from my mom.
7:00am=watched all arashi videos that i had! (pv, live perfs, cms.)
11:00am=went to the mall with bro's gf, "becca".

btw, my birthday cake is pink!!
hahahaha.
share the pic later!!
and im online and no one's online!!
hahaha.

one sad thing though..
my dad didnt call me or sms me.
it seems he forgot its my birthday.
and im not pissed.
im just bothered. a lil.

ja ne!

once in a year. or in this lifetime.

2006-09-18T12:38:00.001+08:00

"Ni shen shang zhuan shu de mo sheng wei dao
Shi wo que ren ni cun zai de mu biao
Bu yong lai hui zhang wang lai zhi dao
Jing shi wo men xiang ge zhe li ge jie jiao

Zhe me jiu le wo hai shi ke yi kan dao
Gan jue i dao di dui wo duo zhong yao
Bu hui bei tian hei tian liang da rao
Ni mei yi ci de wen rou wo dou xiang xuan yao

Wo men rao le yi quan cai yu dao
Wo bi shui dou geng ming bai ni de zhong yao
Zhe me jiu le wo jiu jue ding le
Jue ding le ni de shou wo wo le bu hui fang diao

Wo men rao le yi quan cai yu dao
Wo da ying zhi ji bu zai yong ren zi rao
Ying wei Wo you de wo zi ji zhi dao
Zhi yao ni de jian bang yong yuan rang wo ka"
-"yu dao"

its actually 11:43 AM 9/17/2006 while im writing this...
im so tired.i woke up 9am yesterday.
10am-3pm i was in the salon for my hair treatment.my hair's kinda ok.
but i think it will be so hard to maintain it..
protein-e treatment every month.
hot oil treatment evry week.so costly ne?
i bought cake for denzki's, regie's and my birthday party. (my second birthday party!)
then i went home. slept until 5pm.
fixed everything. brought the cake.
left home at 6:30pmi bought roasted chicken for the party again on my way to denzki's place.
arrived at denzki's place at around 7pm.
talked for about 2hours.
gina,jill,joan,gitte,regie,franz,ap,carlo,chris attended it. with lotsa people i dont know!! hahaha!
ate at 9pm.
we drank bailey's.
which is my fave drink.so sweet la!
denzki didnt put anything in it. no ice. no anything.
just pure bailey's and i love it.i
drank gina's shot.
i drank everybody's leftover.hahaha.
poor me.love bailey's.
went home around 10:30pm.sis arrived from the convention around 11:30pm.
we ate e.aji and pastel bread for dinner.while we were eating she told me that one of the band in the l'arc~en~ciel convention sang "wish" by arashi.hahaha.
that made me laugh.
from jrock to jpop.hahahabut i was proud coz she told me that many people shouted and cheered for wish!!maybe because of hyd but thats an arashi song.
i just have to wait a few months for arashi to be popular here.
sis bought a copy of the laruku smile concert tour last 2004 and a kat-tun album.
now i got my own copy of the signal pv!!kame so kawaii!!i hate jin jin!!
in that laruku concert there was a part where they switched places when they sang.
hyde was the lead guitarist
tetsu the lead vocalistken the drummer
yukihiro the bassist.so crazy la!!
they called the band "p'unk~en~ciel"
hahaha.the shirt was so kakkoi ne.hahaha.
love laruku now!!
++-++
few more hours and my 3rd birthday party will start.
with my family!!!
this is the last one!considering that my birthday will be 2days from now and i already celebrated it 3times is crazy!!
celebrating 3parties is tiring ne!never will do this again!
hahaha!!
oyasuminasai!!
ja ne!
ohayou!!
++-++
12:58 PM 9/18/2006
i havent been online for 3days.
was so busy.
my hair's wrecked la.
hate it so much.
so complicated.
birthday's tomorrow.
finally.
hahaha.
i missed the moon festival coz of my damn hair la.
what am i gonna do now la?
party yesterday was postponed.
celebrate tomorrow. mom said, "letz celebrate ur birthday, on ur birthday!!"
so we will.
third party tom.
hahaha.
some pics i wanna share...

will. will .will. so kawaii ne?
the attendees.. she, chris, lui, lito, tonite, lourjm will, tesa!
all the attendess at my lil party at west!! arigatou,minna!!
take 2!
this was in denzki's place. girls looking pretty la. havent seen carlo for months!!
at west, rice doesnt want to be captured on film!
my mom in west, "nanay bannge" and my boss, toby!!
mah girlz. these girls ha been my friends for 8years!!
toast to the long friendship!! love all this people so much!!
5ivesome at west. look at lourj's cleavage? hahaha. gomen ne.
do i really look so happy in his arms? hahaha.
kharen and rice. gene is in the shadows!!
at denzki's!! toast to baileys and friendship!!
at f spa, lookin so ugly!
take 2!
after the spa!! so ugly la!
birthday boys!! regie and denzki!!
the cake i bought. ruined la!
waahhh!!! damn, this is my drink!!
the birthday boy!! denzki!! with his girl at his back!!
++-++
gonna blog more tomorrow. gonna go back to the salon to fix my hair!!
i miss sho so much!!
i wonder how was the concert in taiwan la!
update me la!!

ja ne!!

what a day!

2006-09-15T19:45:00.000+08:00

at this moment.
my small birthday party at west.
just ended.
im so dead tired.
i will never ever get delivered food again!!
hahaha.
the food was late.
and some of the people left.
and i was so embarassed la!
im so dead tired but im so happy!!
and i just wanna say:
domo arigatou gozaimasu!
to all the people who attended!!
and i will post the pics later!!

and i just wanna say:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GIRL YANA!!
this blogskin is from yana!
yana, thanks so much for everything!
im sorry for always pesterin u!
and i do hope u wont tire urself!
u are in my heart!!
much love,
katz!!

right now,
im so tired!
but im gonna go coz some of the peeps are still eating!!

ja ne!!

yu dao...

2006-09-15T07:08:00.000+08:00

ill be celebrating my birthday today at west.
kinda a small party.
but then we'll just gonna eat.
im not comin to pansol ..
so sad that my mom didnt agree..
so so so so sad.
ill be turning 21 in 4days.
and i cant wait.
seems like being 21 is not a bad thing at all...
yeap. not a bad thing.
i seem to be so sad without any reason at all today.
i just felt..alone.
for a while.
ill be going to the moon festival this sunday with xiang qing in ongpin.
kinda like a lil chinatown in manila.
i love mooncakes.
i hope that i will find arashi stuff now in ongpin!
oh and this pic is from ninoland owned by sarahpotz in the aibakaland forum. sho's recent hairstyle. ninoland is at http://sarahpotz.vox.com
go visit. so creditz goes to sarahpotz.
so glad that sho's back into straight hair.
i love his hair now. i really dont like the wavy, curly hair of sho.
seems like his unclean.
but here..hair's red ne?
is it really red or coffee brown?
kindly please tell me the color by commenting in this post!
color of his hair is near shun's hair color in hana yori dango where he played rui hanazawa, right?

this guy can melt any girls' heart by just posin like that.
i wish i can see him in person...
going to japan soon!!

ja ne!!

secretly in love?

2006-09-14T08:08:00.000+08:00

im so excited for arashi.
this weekend they will be havin their concert in taiwan!
hahaha.
im so proud of them.
i do hope that they will be in the phils soon.
theyre re-airing gokusen.
i wish that everybody will fall in love with matsujun.
then be a fan of arashi as well.
remember the "jun-bait"?

now i understand who "ko-kun" is in nino's nikki..
"ko-kun" is shun oguri.
so nino met up with yamapi and shun recenly ne?
i remember nino sayin that yamaP is a goodlooking guy..
hahaha.
so kawaii of nino.
and u know what im becoming a nino fan ha!
oh im an arashi fan so i love the 5 of them.
i wish i can buy a "aiba-dorama"...
5days to go before i turn 21.
5days to go then i can marry without my parent's consent..
5days to go before i can apply for my own credit card...
5days to go and im "legal"..
hahaha.
what a rant..

ive been so into this guy lately...
and i dont think that he can date me.
coz he got a girl.
well, i dont wanna snatch boys!
as if i can snatch him!!
hahaha.

oh and on saturday, ill be so damn busy.
9am- ill be on the salon.
2pm- l'arc~en~ciel convention
6pm-shiela's bday
7pm-my bday party at denzki's place!

what am i gonna do?
cut my body in half?
hahaha.

janis: oct 14? edc's movie will be out oct 13 la! when are we gonna watch it together? miss u!!

ja ne!!

stand up!

2006-09-13T07:46:00.000+08:00

i was out for 2days.
and im back!
i slept around 5pm yesterday and i asked my sis to wake me up for dinner but she forgot so i slept for about 12hours. i woke up 4:30am today.
hahaha.
ive never slept that long for a long time.
and i feel like i can jump,
but im still sleepy ne.
ok.
i received my stand up! copy monday night,
and watched episode 1-4 from 9pm-3am (monday night to tuesday dawn)
then finished it yesterday.
though the drama touches a very sensitive topic, i enjoyed it.
who wouldnt enjoy seeing yamapi, right?
i mean, i shouted when i saw yamapi.
so so so so so so so so gorgeous.
how can one guy be that hot.
hahaha, ken-ken!!
and u know what i found out?
NINO can act!
this is my first nino-drama so i was a bit surprised.
and was amazed that he got that talent.
now, im so excited to watch that "clint eastwood" film of nino.
and it was weird to hear yamapi or shun call nino "sho-chan".
nino's name in stand up! is asai shohei and they often call him "sho chan"..
so weird. sho's nino? nino's sho?
hahaha.

for every edc fan, "anne suzuki" is so familiar.
she's in "initial d".
jay chou's "apple of the eye"
so im really familiar with her.
and was a bit surprised to find her there.
she's cuter there la.
she was so lucky coz, yamapi fell for her.
but she like nino more.
haah, virgins...

and dont ask me about my virginity coz im not gonna write it here,
lol,
seriously, the drama was good.
it focuses on virginity, sex and purity.
u dont have to rush it.
and i love the way how nino defended anne suzuki.
or the way yamapi confessed to anne.
so so sweet.
and im giving it 5 out of 5 stars!!!
go watch it!!
and here are some of my screencaps.
and its all yamapi!!
hahaha.
dont steal!
+++

this was when ken-ken(yamapi) and che(anne suzuki) was dating. in the museum? she accidentally mentioned "sho's name"...
i forgot where episode i got this. but he is 100% hot. no la!! 200% ^_^
he was confessing to che here. he said. "for me, your my only one!!" ^_^
again, confessing...
i forgot where episode i got this. i got memory gap.
this was when che bought that crazy eggs!!
again.. confessing.
this was in onsen. the hot spring date. they were supposed to do it.
he was exercising here. coz he said that he dont wanna lose to sho-chan! look at his hair!!!
this was in train terminal on the way to onsen. is it really a sin to be this hot?
++-+
again, i forgot about shun.
hahaha.
i bought this drama because of shun.
and he gave an amazing acting as well.
his name is kozi.
he is a virgin as well.
he was the soccer captain!
and the actor who played "noda" in gokusen was in this drama as well.
he's "hayato"
and tsukamoto takashi was there as well, played "kemi", the sex god.
takashi's dramas are surrounded by arashi!
with jun in gokusen.
with sho in kce.
and with nino in stand up!
hahaha.
ok.

last say:
i love arashi so much.
never forgot them.
and love them more everyday.
i miss sho so much!!
hope u they can visit the philippines!!
yay!

ja ne!!

chunmei to xiangqing:
miss u. muax.. ^_^

adore aiba.. SO MUCH.

2006-09-10T16:34:00.000+08:00

i know. i know that this is shallow.
but i adore aiba now.
more than sho.
i dunno why.
aiba's honest.
aiba's an idiot sometimes but he is adorable in those moments.
aiba's itsuka no summer is my ringing tone now.
and aiba's voice is my message alert tone.
yay!! im getting aiba-ish ne?
i adore him so much.
and i wanna meet aiba and shake his hands.
and tell him,
"your a great person! you inspire people in so many way!"
waaahh..
i will not forget sho.
but aiba is kinda gettin in to my head la!

sho's great.
and i read in lj that sho regretted that belly piercing thing.
wow.
completely adore him.

aiba-chan!!!

ja ne!

xiangqing: take care and dont take rui away from me. hahaha.

one last thing,
i miss him.
"yu shu"
hahaha.
gene and trei knows about him.
maybe, just maybe, im falling for him.
i absolutely miss him when i dont see him and
i always look at him when im in west.
he catched me watching him yesterday for like 5times.
and he asked me, "why?"
and he kissed me goodbye 2weekends ago.
and im hooked on him
hahaha.
u are my world now.

ja ne!!

keepin my fingers crossed..

2006-09-09T08:47:00.000+08:00

i do hope and pray that i will receive my "stand up" copy today.
i am so excited to see yamapi again.
and nino as well.
oh, i forgot about shun.
shun, shun. shun.
i hope. please.
please.
i wanna watch it badly.
080808--+

i finished iswak the other night.
and it was damn good.
ost rocks as well.
jason and lara's song was my fave...
say that u love me.
say that u care.
gene and i are addicted.
we call each other "xiangqing" and "chungmei"
hahaha.
love gene so much!!

ja ne!!
gene's waiting for me!! oh i mean "xiangqing" is waiting for me!!
hahaha

ja ne!!

pictorial day

2006-09-08T08:13:00.000+08:00

i was sittin beside gene yesterday when a very good idea popped into my sleepy head. a pictorial... we havent done that for months. and i invited my fave girls to do it. and we had a lot of fun. being with them was so refreshing. makes me so happy and alive. the timer thing was the funniest part. we need practice. lol. and i wasnt sitting beside gene for the longest time. and we talked a LOT yesterday. i totally ignored EMER. hahaha. so we had the crazy photoshoot. and me and gene, dl "it started with a kiss" ost. coz its so great. and we went home around 9pm. arrived home around 10:30pm. here are the pics.
trei postin like a guess? model.
ang likot kasi kaya nagutom...lol
look at trei. what a pose!! gene acting royalty. kharen and sheila facing and hugging the wall. i love this pic.
c xiangqing malungkot..bakit kaya? hahaha. it was a black day yesterday!!
the dinner. spag and fries. wla akong choice eh.
c trei pasaway!! nakagreen kasi!! ahhaha. sa cubicle yan sa restroom.
yay!!! pangfriendster ni shiela eto!!
japanese pose. wla lang.
look at my pimples!! yay!! havent got no sleep.
im the photographer but im capturin another photographer.
trei..kulleeeetttt...
katz and gene. the "iswak" girls. zhi shu and xiangqing!! ahhaha
this was supposed to be the arashi post. but....theyre only 4.

++-++
thats all the pix. so fun la!!
we should do it more.
i will share some pic i took the other day.

my book. and believe me im gettin better!! sugoi ne?
my iswak dvds. love the series. go watch it!!
the book im reading... great book. great writer.
another angle of my iswak dvds.

i gotta go.

gene is waiting for me!!

ciao!! NO LAH.

ja ne!!

i miss arashi so much.

and i recently got my copy of the RB2U iza!now performance and i love it. so much. sho so sexy. the dance was so great. and im loving AIBA each day. i almost forgot about sho.

ja ne!!

a birthday gift from my sister!

2006-09-06T08:52:00.000+08:00

this pic is from my edc-sister, janis.
love her.
so much!
thanks!!!
can u see it?

it started with a kiss

2006-09-06T08:15:00.000+08:00

for some unknown reason, i feel better today!
lil sleepy. but kinda giddy.

++-++
i woke up around 10am yesterday, feelin a LOT better.
i slept for about 10hours and it felt good la.
then i ate breakfast at 11am.
then slept again from 12nn-3pm.
i felt better.
then my "it started with a kiss" dvd arrived yesterday.
u see, my player is "under construction"
so im watching it in my pc.
hahaha.
so stupid of me to buy a dvd without translations.
good thing i know basic mandarin.
and i was praying they will talk slowly so that i can understand them better.
it was a good series.
if ur tired of korean dramas playing again anf again on tv, i recommend "it started with a kiss".
it's fast pacing.
and i find the guy "zhishu" so so kawaii.
this is the first taiwanese drama since "lovestorm" and "mg" that i enjoyed too much.
although ive watched only the first 13chapters and i still got 17chapters to watch,im really excited.
its so sweet. hahaha.
u see, taiwanese dramas are long compared to jdoramas and korean dramas.
"mg2" got 30(?)episodes too, right?
and hyd got 9episodes only. see the difference?
nwp got 10epi.
gokusen1 got 12 and special.
gokusen got 10epi.
and "it started with a kiss" got 30 long episodes.
although i enjoyed it, 30 epis are so many!!
hahaha.

i slept at 3am, finishing 13 episodes.
gotta watch again tonight.
but im so dead sleepy....

ja ne!!

rants of a broken heart.

2006-09-04T17:31:00.000+08:00

SHE LIED TO ME.
and i cant believe that she is still lying to me.
what would u feel if ur closest friend lies to u?
how did i know?
coz somebody told me the whole story.
why keep on lying to me?
i hate liars. even if ur a friend.
i mean, lying to me was a big thing.
all those stories...
all those happy moments...
im still ur friend.
but why cant u say the truth to me?
is it that u dont trust me?
or ur afraid of my reaction?
im still confused.
i do hope we can fix this.
coz i LOVE u.
and u know i can FORGIVE u.
coz i do understand.
coz i can accept u.
anything.
coz this is how i love friends.
and ur one of the friends that i love so much.
so eventhough this happenned, i will always be in ur side.
till HELL freezes over.
and i mean that. with all my heart.
++--++

again.
i will have to post this again.
i dont give a FuC.k.
if people dont like me.
i dont give a dam.n.
its heartbreaking to know that some people hates me.
i guess, u cant please anybody.
and i think that lame people does that all the time.
lame lame people who sent u emails.
telling u they hate u like hell.

im not a rock.
i do feel emotions.
and please if ever ur so mad at me and u wanna sent hate emails.
dont EVER EVER EVER include my mom in it.
coz that hurts BIG TIME.
my mom is the most important person in this world for me.
you have no right, to tell somethings bad about my mom or my family.
u made me cry when i read that email pertaining to my mom.
dont ever do that again.
and im super close to not blogging anymore.
or cancelling this blogspot account.

coz my emotions sometimes are really uncontrolled just like this one.

hope this one ends it.
no hate emails.
no fucking emails.
no pms.
get a life, bitches.

and u hate me coz of one guy?
thats so down low.
i never talked to PAUL.
and i never will.
so stop this messy fight.
and this will be my last say,
i will not forgive u ever.
the scene at the bar last summer...
the thing with ur mom going to my house.
that thing with paul.
go get a life.
and i mean it.

-++

just as i thought..

2006-09-03T15:27:00.000+08:00

can u see it? its from the arashi mandarin class. that date below was my birthday. and the guy in black was kinda talkin about meeting sho in that said date when sho was 14. coincidence. but sho was cute!! meeting sho and my birthday. wow. lolz.

++--++
i never ever meant to be mean sometimes.
if a person thinks im an airhead, well, sorry to disappoint u but this girl got brains.
i always fight for what i believe in and i always do what i want.
if u think that i will just stay silent and let that happen AGAIN. well think about it. i dont get mad, i get even and if u think that u've won. well think again. coz i wont lose. not to u or to ur damn friends. i am strong. and i will fight back. BELIEVE ME.
++--++
i started my nihonggo lessons last night. right after i came home. around 12mn. with a book.
and im gettin better.
maybe a month from now, i will be blogging in nihonggo. lol.
+++
i did some screen caps. so im sharin them no stealing!!

this is from the bonus one dvd. after they sang "subarashiki sekai". look at jun. so adorable. hahaha.
they were singing "a.ra.shi" here. sho and nino was touching ridaa's ass... so so funny. they were staring at the back camera.
they were singing the bridge part of sakura sake. and i love this shot. ohno at the middle.
this was in hey!hey!hey!! look at ridaa. his face didnt changed at all. this was in 1999.
aiba-chan!! so kawaii!! he was 16. and he was so so cute. i love his eyes so much.
nino-kun. his eyes were pretty small back then. his eyes is not that small now.
my fly guy, sho sakurai. 17. and look at his arm. hahaha. muscle-boi!!
i wasnt able to capture jun's coz i cant find a better angle. so sorry.

this was the special 200+4 episode of g no arashi where they played that aiba board game. sho said aiba misspelled his name. he got that crazy goatie (?) and he still looked cool. so kakkoi!!
another scene from the one concert. waving bbye!!
still my fave arashi performance of all time. tomadoinagara... shoshoshosho cute!!

++-++

this pictures were the pix i wanna share this past few weeks but havent got the chance to coz i was lazy(?)..

lourj's feet is not that ugly. she just twiched her feet so that she can make it ugly. lol. chucks' belongs to trei. mine's the blue one. arvin's was the white one. this was actually last night. when we did that crazy EH. HAHAHA.
believe me when i say that my good friend, TREI, is a good citizen. hahahaha.
so fat. hahaha. my cheeks are so fatty and i realized just now that im always in pink whenever i took a pic of myself. hahaha
iris eating mashed potato when we met for dinner last week. she got a new hairstyle!!
this is one of my fave socks. forgive me for havin ugly feet.

this was a nice sunset view. i just wished i didnt capture the jolibee thingy. hahaha. pink skies!!

++--+

janis: DOMO ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU for the very nice gift at multiply. im sharing the picture here soon... waaahhh.. that was so so so beautiful!! edc is so so hot!! arigatou!! love to u, girl.!

ja ne!!

all or nothing

2006-09-02T21:29:00.000+08:00

yeap.
all or nothing.

live perf at:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=heBPjmwYm4w
and i love the dance.
so kakkoi...
watch it...
aiba and ohno speaking english..:
ohno's reaction was so hilarious.."i dont speak english..lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z89tYFe65Po

my fave video.. arashi speaking in mandarin!! sho's a teacher's pet la!!lol.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=STf-mEWF1FA&mode=related&search =

and the ever sweet..
subarashi sekai...
http://youtube.com/watch?v=7WXIy16cP-o

i miss them so much.

love or japan?

2006-09-02T07:46:00.000+08:00

what if i did that?
is there any chance that i can escape from him?
i ponder on these questions since the day she suggested it...
is it my advantage or what?
i can go there freely anytime if i did that.
this is gettin hell serious...
love or japan?
this is my only chance.
and i need to decide quick.
before i ran out of that one chance.
hell. im too young.
im just a girl.
lookin out, i need to be careful.
i need to think more.
hell. hell. hell.
do i love japan that much?
mom would be hell furious.
enough.
++--++

i went to the mall yesterday.
grab sugarhouse cookies for my baby sis.
bought a "kami naman po" cd for my onee-chan.
a new japanese book for me.
or rather for my sis. again.
treated my mom for dinner.
ate at TOKYO TOKYO. again.
i love japanese food.
but. im really not fond of misono.
rather ate tonkatsu.
but mom insisted.
ate misono.
and mocha ice.
bought eggpie. and polvoron.
bought a purse.
see?
thats how impulsive i am.
shopping for me is..... what catches ur eyes are the things u need to buy.
like picking a boyfriend.
what catches ur eyes is what u chooses to be comitted with.
right?
ne?
eeehhh?
ok. went home with mom.
talked again.
then called joanne.
for 3mins.
my phone went low-batt on me.
then went straight to my pc.
re-watched "one" dvd.
and i love aiba!!
hahhaha. so adorable.
i dunno why but im just adoring the 5 guys from arashi.

slept around 2am.
and here i am blogging.
sorry for being like this.
still sleepy.
and im dead tired.

ja ne!!

marukyu

2006-09-01T08:16:00.000+08:00

"marukyu"...
if there is one place in the world i wanna be right now, its in marukyu.
shibuya 109.
shopping there will be a dream come true. hahaha.
++-++

im gettin ********* and im serious.
my mom said "NO!"
but i think i will...
i will fill u in with the story later.

+++-+++

g no arashi is ending. it will be outta tv soon. and...
sho will be a "serious" newscaster now. every mondays.
i wonder, will he ever be serious?
hahahaa.
i miss arashi so much.
there is a 2hour special g no arashi episode.
but i dunno what will happen....

found this at http://junko-arasick.livejournal.com
im happy bout sho, but what about a show like g no arashi?
so sad.... T_T

i will miss that.
the fight song...
ganbare!!! no arashi will live on!!!

ja ne!!

tanjoubi omedetou, matsujun!!

2006-08-30T07:53:00.000+08:00

today is matsujun's 23rd birthday!!
tanjoubi omedetou!!
i hope that arashi can share a clip of his party or something.
++---++

im losing that drive to blog once more.
im just so tired.

bye.

tomadoinagara

2006-08-29T15:18:00.000+08:00

i am so sleepy.
and i know that ive been like this for days.
coz of lack of freakin sleep.

and i got pix to share.
thea gave me a copy of arashi's perf of "tomadoinagara"
3years ago and i did some screencaps.
so here.
its actually all sho!! hahahaha.

do not steal!! make ur own screencaps!! hahaha.
im glad i have this pic. i love him here.
he is so young.
this is actually my current k750i wallpaper. he is so so so hot.

i love their dance here.

im gonna go coz im gonna buy pizza for my sick bro.
i actually spend the whole day with my bro's gf and she isnt as bad as i thought.
i kinda like her.
so there.
i apologize.
she is nice.
and i accepted her already.

bbye!!

oh, janis: miss u bunch!!
joanna: welcome back!!! did singapore changed u?
lol/
love u two!!

ja ne!!

the fight song

2006-08-28T08:10:00.000+08:00

fight song, yay!
composed by nino.
fight song is the opening theme of g no arashi.
so kulleetttt..
sobra!
i adore arashi more than ever.
theyre makin me happy everyday.
++--++

when i woke up for breakfast yesterday morning, my mom was like,
mom: "do u want to buy something?"
me: "no. why?"
mom: "lets go to the mall today."
me: "no."
mom: "why?"
me: "coz im tired."
mom: "sige na!"
me: "ok. as long as we will go to radio city. and that kathrina will come with us."
mom: "no prob."

then we went to the mall.
she bought me a new bag, bedroom slippers, nba water bottle, scrunchies and a judith mcnaught book.
see? she's super kind to me.
coz my birthday is comin up.
we ate at tokyo tokyo.
my fave fastfood resto of all time.
ate tonkatsu and tuna misono.
we ordered mixed sushi and my mistake was eating a kind of sushi i didnt know.
i almost puked infront of sis and mom. my sister ate all the maki. which i love so much.
coz i cant eat anything after that. lolz.

mom bought lotsa food for dinner though.
pizza, brownies, french bread.
she stuffing us with too much food la.

i love her.
++--++

katz radio:
recently addicted to miyavi's "kimi ni negai wo"
so so so so so great.
everybody should listen to him.

ja ne!!

third pick

2006-08-25T08:38:00.000+08:00

im so proud of joseph yeo!!
third draft pick for the pros is so great ne?
congrats and ganbatte!!

+++
i gotta blog short.
met iris the other day.
talked about lotsa things and
ate at kfc.
she's actually gaining weight.

gotta go.

blog more tomorrow
or in multiply.

if people dont like me,
i dont give a Fu.cK.
really.

so dont like me if u never mean it.

back off!!

ja ne!!

welcome back, janis!!
did vegas changed u la?
lol.

ja ne!!

ara-chic

2006-08-23T07:45:00.000+08:00

i am what u called a lazy pig.
i went out last night and i left my phone at home.
under my pillows, which i usually do.
and when i returned home, i looked at my phone and i got 18 sms.
15sms from one person and 3 sms from 3 different person.
and since im a lazy bum, i ignored it.
later i realized that one of the sms was from iris whom im gonna meet today.
im gonna eat dinner with her today to talk.
and i was a fool to ignore all my sms. i just smsed her back this morning and i do hope she's not freakin mad. iris, hontou wo, gomenasai!!
+++--+++
wanna know how lazy i am.
ok.
first i got 5 emails.
kathy_noside@yahoo.com
kathy_noside@hotmail.com
ythak_noside@icqmail.com
coxsackie08@yahoo.com (my ym)
sho_katz08@yahoo.co.jp

and the pic below is from my coxsackie account. click it.
and voila!! 42,000+ new emails that i havent read.
and im so lazy.
i know that.
so please bear with me.

i gotta go!!!
i gotta work!!

ja ne!!
ohayou!!

yes? no?

2006-08-22T14:52:00.000+08:00

guess whatz this? yeap. my desktop. im back on vintage desktop. coz i prefer it. simple and nice. sho's face slightly hidden la! but i like that pic so much. and as u can see, im still hooked on bookworm and texttwist coz im a geek!! hahaha. ok. enough.
since its a lil cold today, they decided that i should cook soup for lunch. and i did. sopas, lol. and i hate the taste. i put too much milk in it and i hadnt noticed it. busy singing "subarashiki sekai" la. lol. and im actually so sleepy today so much. and after this entry, i might sleep again. and i hope everything's fine. and i ate at jabi again yesterday. got no choice. ok. gotta share some photos. last sunday, when i spent my whole day with this guy, chuckie chuck!!
some ingredients for my soup, got nuttin to do so i took a pic of them. garlic, onion, carrots, beans.
mean cabbage. lol
mac, mac, mac. still uncooked.
this is the soup.. does it look yummy? no lah!! oishii!! its actually in my fave japanese bowl. were using japanese utensils at home.
this is not worms. its the chicken that i boiled and i shredded them. it looks so icky!! hahaha.
+++
im actually reading aiba's and nino's 10,000 words interview in arashigoto and im havin fun!!
when can they translate sho's? or jun's? ohno's?
i cant wait. and im currently hooked on watching arashi's "one" concert. i got a copy. the bonus dvd copy. all thanks to thea!!!
and i got one g no arashi episode that is so hilarious.. so so hilarious. stockings on aiba's and sho's face. and jun being the lucky one. and nino too. so funny.
theyre makin me happy everyday. maybe i should be hooked on them always.
and yamapi. yamapi.
he is so adorable and sexy.
"...kokoro.", "..kon-kon."
everybody should watch nobuta wo produce...

bbye!!
gotta sleep.

ja ne!!
konnichiwa!!

subarashiki sekai

2006-08-21T07:30:00.000+08:00

i love the morning right now.
its freezing cold and i got like 2 shirts on and a jacket.
but eventhough its freezing cold this morning, this is the first time that ive ever felt this better.
no sun today but its feels like the skies are shining.
i feel so good.
and i dunno why.
i just hope it will last for the whole day.
i just adore this morning.
+++-+++

i spent the whole day with chuck yesterday.
not really.
1pm-10pm.
so nine hours la!
when he arrived i was sleepin and i didnt eat lunch.
and i was so sleepy that i wasnt talkin to him properly.
we talked and eat and talked and eat.
we ate mango biscuits and mango juice. (1pm)
then we ate mom's hotcake and coke! (3pm)
then we ate chips and coke again. (6:30pm)
then we ate dinner. nilagang baka, fried fish, adobo and lotsa things. (8pm)
then we went to mcd's and he bought me mcflurry la!! so oishii... hahah (9:30pm)
we fixed my pc.
and he is the reason why i have the arashi pics on my phone..lol.
and i was never bored.
he accompanied me to buy some cd things.
and im so happy.
i just dont understand why my friends in highschool have this "gap" that i cannot understand,
maybe im just a lil insensitive to this kind of things.
i was supposed to notice it last week but i didnt.
so so lame of me.
ok.
i had fun, chuck!!
++--++

im forever thankful to thea..
now i got "5x5" and "one" album of arashi.
and i got 30 videos (live performances and pv's)
and i got 20 commercials.
and i got 1 "mago mago arashi" episode.
and 1 episode of "g no arashi"
dakara, kokoro kara hontou wo, arigatou gozaimasu!
i hope i got that right.
and i think my nihonggo is better now la!!
hahaha.

ja ne!!
ohayou!!

japan ne?

2006-08-19T15:32:00.000+08:00

everybody knew that i got a new email, right?
and i will share a pic of it.. i got nuttin to do so im gonna share it la!!
haha.. can u understand it?
im bad in hiragana and katakana..what if its in kanji right?
can even understand it properly... lol.

again,,,

janis happy birthday!! tanjoubi omedetou!!

ja ne!!

yamashita tomohisa

2006-08-19T07:33:00.000+08:00

the title above tells it all.
yeap.
im hooked on him
gomen ne.
yamapi.
++--++
gotta blog first.
at 5pm, met cat. and ate at jabi.
we were supposed to go to mcds.
but there are no available seats so we went to jabi instead.
talked to her until 7:30pm.
then mom called me and she said that were supposed to go home together so we did.
u know my mom. my legs were aching but my mom insist that we shop.
ok la. we did.
my mom said, "im gonna buy u tons of chocs.."
what was she thinkin that im 4years old? lol.
but she did bought me tons of chocs.
and for the first time in months, we talked a LOT.
and she cleared some things to me. which opened my eyes to the reason.
why they did that.
then we arrived at home 10pm
watched "nobuta wo produce" right away.
started 10pm and i slept around 4:45am.
and i woke up around 6am.
and im blogging here.
u should see my eyes.
so lame la.
its gettin smaller due to constant lack of sleep. lol.
me and my sis were drooling over yamapi...
so kawaii when he said, "...kokoro.", "..kon." and "shuuji-kun."
i love his character. and i love nobuta wo produce.
kame's so thin la.
he wasnt that thin in gokusen2.
maybe he's on a diet..lol.

oh and i hope janis will not kill me.
she's into yamapi as well.
++--++

happy birthday to "my cool chic in california"
JANIS!!
have a happy birthday and i hope that u will receive yamapi as a gift. lol.
miss u!! and come home soon la!!
gotta watch grudge 2 together.
ingatz.

ja ne!
im dead sleepy.
and my eyes hurt so much.

so lame la.

2006-08-18T03:02:00.000+08:00

i gotta apologise to blogspot.
yeap.. its my fault.
and if ur reading my multiply, u would know why.
i blogged at multiply for 2days coz i cannot open blogspot at west.
maybe the "IT" blocked it for some fuck.in reason.
so lame la.

ok. i dont have anything to blog really.
and i apologise for what i posted at multiply.
i am STILL supportin arashi no matter what.
many people reacted on that post and i apologise..

++-++
bad: yeap. no updates means no 4th season right? why is it so long..i wonder why.. im online in msn right now. letz chat la!
janis: thats ok... i didnt know u were outta ur house yesterday. sorry la.

now i need to dl some stuff!

ja ne!!

btw, read nino's nikki...its worth ur time!! lol.

ja ne!!

rejection, bitches

2006-08-14T20:31:00.000+08:00

i had fun chatting with clara eventhough it was like 25minutes coz she needs to go to her work.
and she's kind. i do hope to chat with her more.
++-++

and about rejection.
why does people cant take it when u rejects them la?
i know im not pretty or rich
but i know that i do have the right to choose my friends or my dates.
nobody tells me what to do.
and i hate *** so much right now.
coz she cant take a rejection.
get a life girl, or go to hell.
dont bug me ever again.
u should know that it was ur fault and u should put this into ur empty head:
im movin on.
so go away and leave me alone.

ninomiya kazunari

2006-08-14T17:11:00.000+08:00

although im liking sho for a long time now, im beginning to adore nino more.
his diary is a must-read to all his fans.
so-so- kawaii.
too many "ne?"
lol. but he is so adorable and reading his diary is worth all my time.
he is a game-maniac like me.
he loves games, i love games
and he calls aiba "professor aiba" lol.
and he calls sho, "sho-chan"
so adorable.
i think im turning a nino fan here, ne?
nooooo!!!
sho is not forgotten.
never will be.
but nino is so adorable.
ate a lot today.
trei and i ate ice cream although its freezing cold because of the "stormy" weather.
ate cordon bleu today which is my fave and i ate siopao today as well...
im turning gluttonous here la.
hahaha.
and im pissed about the pop-up ads.
can somebody help me with that?
west hasnt got a "pop-up-blocker" but my pc at home does.
so i hate pop-ups.
goin to japan from here will be so hard.
when i was in the cab this morning, i passed by japanese embassy and the people at the front were so so many.
i cant figure out a way to go to japan the easiest way.
getting a visa is so hard too.
even if its just for tourists like moi.
cant figure out a way.
cant wait to see arashi.
my friend found a better way.
since arashi will be in taiwan on sept 15 and 16, she told me,
"why dont u go taiwan instead? goin there will be easier?'
and that made me think a LOT.
she got a point and besides, the albums of arashi is on sale in taiwan as well.
but its gonna be 4 or 3 days before my birthday. so i think my mom will say a big
"NO!"
but i can take my chances rightto?
so i think i have to wait.
and a good point is that taiwan is nearer than japan so airfare will be cheap.
tonite told me its gonna be around 12,000bucks compared to 20,000+ for airfare in japan.
but i wanna go to JAPAN badly!!
arrgghh.
im turning nomadic again.

ja ne!

la tormenta

2006-08-14T10:16:00.000+08:00

before i rant, im gonna blog first.
enjoyed chatting with ryao last saturday night.
talked about lotsa things.
thanks, ryao.
after chatting i went to chaq's battle of the bands.
chaq's group was so so good.
i had a great time.
they won 1st runner up. wow.
so a big big two thumbs up to my boi, chuck.
after the gig i went home again.

i slept around 2am sunday morning coz i was so busy downloading some arashi videos.
watched it all over again and again. and i edited some things.
i woke up around 8am sunday morning.
its our "fiesta" day!
we are celebrating the feast of "saint claire"
and we cooked all day yesterday.
i was so dead tired.
my friends was supposed to go at my place.
denzki, carlo, regie, gina, joann, chuck, jill, ap, franz, vincent, chris, gitte.
but the only who came is regie and chaq.
so sad la.
we cooked many food.
thyrza came over.
watched a lil arashi vidz before the 2 boys dropped by.
thyrza likes nino. lol.
she said sho is cute so i like thyrza now.
while we were watchin, my sis kept on saying, "sho's hair is so bunot."
lol. and thyrza was like, "hinde naman ah. gwapo nga cya eh.."
i was like, "beehhh!!"
and thyrza kept on saying, "yuck! bading na bading c jun!"
that kept me laughing. hahaha.
thyrza got a nice taste. sho and nino.
2 of my fave boyz in arashi. lol.
and when we watched "sunrise nippon" she kept on laughing at how jun was so thin.
sho looked cute by the way. lol.
and then the 2 boys came.
and we ate and talk and talk and talk and played "one piece" and "tekken tag" in ps2.
they cant beat me. lol.
they sucked at video games. hahhahaha.
no lah. chuck's a genius in "one piece".
they arrived 6pm and went home around 11pm.
we talked about a lotsa things.
about japan, business and our futures.
were gonna start a business soon.
so watch out for that.

then i woke up late this morning.
and i had to take a cab
and pay a hefty 300bucks. which is too much.
im so poor. now i only have 500bucks for the whole week.
arrghh.
im gonna sell myself to some japanese guys.
anybody there who wants to buy me?
jodan!! jodan!!
(translation: just kiddin'!)

and im at west right now. so bye.

ja ne!

oh about the ranting.
i hate my bro's girl so much right now.
can she think straight?
i just wanted him to be happy but not with her.
my anger for her is beyond what she expected.
if she's pregnant, im gonna kill her.
really.
she's damn 17 and she's practically living at my house.
and i hate it when she doesnt mingle.
and i hate my brother so much for being so irresponsible.
just dont come running to me or to mom for help.
i hate it.
i hope he doesnt read this.
coz he will kill me for sure.

ja ne.

screw the rules!

2006-08-12T16:00:00.000+08:00

starting monday, i wont be able to use my phone while im inside west premises.
and i need all the help i can get from whoever is reading this entry.
can u give me some suggestions where to hide my phone.
im using a k750i unit so its kinda bigger than samsung phones.
trei said i should i hide it inside my bra.
but thats kinda irritating.
someone told me to hide it in my socks
or better yet i will leave my phone at home which i will not do (obviously..)
so i need some suggestions.
care to share me any ideas?
all ideas will be appreciated.
i cant get through the whole day without my phone and this rule will be implemented everyday!!
T_T so please. i need any advices!!

arigatou!
take care.

ja ne!

v6 instead

2006-08-12T09:26:00.000+08:00

its actually 9:22am while im writing this and im dead tired and my legs are aching and thats why im a lil irritated.
i woke up at 4:30am. left home around 5:45am.
the reason why i did that is bcoz somebody texted my sister telling her that there are "tons" of arashi stuff at quiapo. and since my shift will start at 9am, i need to be there early.
i arrived there at 6:45am. and i walked around quiapo lookin for arashi concerts and stuffs. and my mom surprised me last night and gave me 500 bucks. she told me, "do u need anything?"
and i said, "nope."
and she said, "here, if u ever need anything, go buy it."
lol. i was surprised. and i was so speechless that i didnt say anything to her.
and this morning, i thanked her.
ok. back to quiapo.
i was walking and walking and i found..
NOTHING.
no arashi concert, no arashi albums.
so i was looking and looking when i spotted a small stall without customers and i went in and i was lookin around when i found a..
V6 concert. i bought it. i dont care if its not arashi (because i was dead tired!)
at least, it was from japan, right?
and i end up buyin the whole "gokusen" anime series, bleach episodes 1-10.
and the v6 concert.
i spotted a "tackey" series with aya ueto but didnt bought it coz im really not a fan of tackey and tsubasa.
so its 9am and im dead tired and sleepy. and i got lotsa plans tonight and i dont think i have the strength to do those plans. haah. im really a lil irritated so for give me.
oh, and i watched the "sunrise nippon" mv last night.
cool vid. sho was so young and nino was really cute.
nino hasnt changed at all.
and arashi was so so young. lol.
when i started being a fan of arashi this was my boyz' ranking:
1. jun
2. aiba
3. nino
4. sho
5. ohno

yeap, i didnt like sho back then but he kinda grew on me. i love it when he raps. and the next ranking was after two weeks of being a fan of arashi.
1. sho
2. jun
3. nino
4. aiba
5.ohno

ridaa at the bottom? yeap. i was oblivious to what he can do. and i adore jun coz i watched his dramas. and this is my recent ranking.
1. sho
2. nino
3. aiba
4. ohno
5. jun

jun at the bottom? yeap. coz i dont like his hair recently. lol but i still love his dramas. and nino is turning so kawaii everyday. aiba is aiba. so adorable and sensitive. ridaa's voice is so impressive. such high and powerful voice.
when ur an arashi fan from the philippines, ur favorite will turn out to be jun matsumoto coz he is the only member of arashi that is known here. becoz of "gokusen". the fans of "gokusen" si so oblivious to the other members of arashi. they just know that jun is from a boygroup called "arashi" which is kinda sad. like my sis' friend who dropped by like a week ago, she saw jun's pics on my phone and she's shrieking but i was like, "go check arashi's folder in my phone, theyre so talented and great." but she said that she only loves jun. and that was so sad coz how can arashi have a concert here in the philippines if the only member they knew is "jun".
and if u look really in to arashi and as time goes by and u get to know and listen to them better, u will really appreciate their individual talent. i think that jun acts the best. and the singing department belongs to ridaa. sho's rapping skills is great. nino's guitar playing is the best and aiba is my fave when it comes to jokes and i mean, sudden jokes,ok?
lol.
am i turning arashi-c again?

ok. somebody emailed me and wrote that my sho sakurai group is empty.
well, hun, u will not be able to see the stuff there if u dont have a multiply accout.
its a rule in multiply groups.
u should register in multiply and join the group if u wanna be a part of it. ok?
thanks for the support.
again, my group is at:
http://shosakurai.multiply.com
and my edc phils at:
http://edcphils.multiply.com

support me.
and to all filipino arashi fans, go make a site for us so that arashi will know that we are growing and they will be able to have a concert here. onagaizimasu! tama ba? hahaha.

ja ne!

bon voyage and bluesky pedal

2006-08-11T03:16:00.000+08:00

i will miss joanna badly. she flew from cebu to singapore last night. she's been my confidante for the last 10(?) days. weve been talkin in multiply about our lives, arashi, sho-kun, johnny's jr and japan. and i do hope that she will be able to talk to me even though she's in sg. she'll be there for 14days and i will miss her so much. funny how we met but we are like sisters. were almost adoptin each other. joanna, ganbatte on ur arashi stuff-hunting!! kio tsukette ne!! bon voyage!!

i got nuttin to do so i watched arashi's pv "aozora pedal" last night and did some screencaps. so im gonna share them. and my bro cooked mac and cheese for dinner. so oishii!! and im also sharin my fave arashi photos.. lolz.. im hooked. ohno, aiba, jun, nino and sho. look how young they are. i think this was in 1999. i got this from http://jpoparashi.multiply.com where im a member. go join us! they are so kawaii!!
look how adorable sho is. he's hair is long here and i love it. i also got this from jpoparashi. jun is a midget back then. nino doesnt changed at all.
--++
my aozora pedal sc's...

this was in the near end when sho saw the girl while the other guys didnt.. after this scene, nino said, "doushta?" to sho.
this was after the firewoks.. hanabi... yeap...
this was when the girl told sho her feelings.. so sad. sho said, "..gomen." that was harsh.
ridaa... he was busy he said, in this scene. he was busy watching soccer. lolz. i like ridaa's voice. he's always preoccupied and i love him in "aozora pedal" pv. coz he is so kawaii...
this guy is so adorable. next to sho, he's my fave. ninomiya kazunari. i got one of his "bay storm"(nino's radio show?) episode where the other guys was his guests. they were promoting "sakura sake" back then and nino was so so funny to hear. and i read somewhere that he loves video games (like me!). nino.
i really dont like his hair. i like his hair in pika**nchi double pv. i really like him and i watched almost all of his dramas but im kinda tired of seeing him.. gomen ne to all matsujun fans. i still like him coz he is part of arashi but not that much as before. and i do think he needs a haircut. and im really excited for his next drama, hana yori dango2. tsukasa is back!
this guy made me cry. aiba-chan is so so funny. he's next to nino in my list. i absolutely adore him. and i watched the la tormenta 2004 performance in their "one concert" in 2005 in youtube and this guy was so cute there. especially when he does that crazy backflips. so so adorable. and who wouldnt cry with his letter to arashi rightto? after reading that letter to arashi, they performed "hero" and sho hugged aiba-chan. i like that scene. so much. aiba-chan is so sensitive. and he is so funny.
i love the way sho sits. lol.
"jakenpoi" yeap. they are fighting who will buy the fireworks. hanabi.
they were staring at what ohno(ridaa..) painted.. the girl is so so pretty.i cant believe sho declined her. the girl looked so happy though..lolz.
a buffier sho singing his part... i love HIM.
another shot. look at his ring... i wanna have that!
hahaha.. ridaa and aiba-chan looking cute. they jumped over a platform across each other and this is my fave scene.
another shot. can u see aiba?

++--++

i got a new pv sent to me. try to upload it in multiply. sunrise nippon.

i gotta go!!

ja ne!

birthday and september plans

2006-08-10T09:53:00.000+08:00

41 days before my 21st birthday and my september calendar is a bit full.
september 1- a date with some of my college friends.

september 5- a date with my sis on the mall for my bday shopping. lolz.

september 12- denzki's birthday.

september 15 to 16 (morning at 10am)- team building in pansol, laguna. overnight swimming, drinking, smoking and videoke singing!

september 16 (in the afternoon at 1pm)- yeap, after the swim, i need to attend the most awaited convention for j-rockers like me. the "l'arc~en~ciel" convention at up bahay ng alumni in q.c. cant wait for that. i love hyde!! cosplaying him will be so cool.

september 16 (in the evening, after the convention)- regie's (my boy) birthday!!

september 17 (at night)- i plan to have my birthday party(for my highschool friends) at this day coz its sunday and everyone will not have plans. right?

september 18- i think i will file this as a vacation leave. coz i need to rest but i will be havin a party for my family.

september 19- my birthday!! me and my baby sis will get our foot spa, manicure and pedicure. shop a lil. and eat all day. lolz

september 20- if i still got money. i will treat my west friends. trei,she,tonite,gene,kharen and all my angels to dinner. i hope this will happen. i love them so mucho.. lolz.

september 27-airene's birthday.
+++-+++
im not really busy. just gimmicks. lolz.

and this is my birthday wishlist and since im turning (damn!) 21, i will be listing 21 things i want for my birthday. ok?

21. to have a peaceful birthday celebration.

20. to be able to stay in my job for another year.

19. to forgive him. and for him to accept me.

18. to be able to meet joanna and kitty so that we can all watch a arashi concert together.

17. to be able to meet mariel, yayil, kaeue and chin from the aiya forum.

16. to build edc philippines and make it work.

15. to see yana, viv and efa in singapore. i wanna talk to yana badly. and to efa, the other sho-fan.

14. to see sharon, sabrina and bad in malaysia. to be able to see them and talk to them.

13. to go to japan in december. and watch a arashi concert.

12. to have that crazy "sho" tattoo at my lower back. khit henna lang.

11. kimi wa petto vcds(dont ask why. momo is cute.) and all arashi dramas. including "stand up" (nino's there la.) and for cat to continue supportin me and help me to buy more dramas.

10. for arashi to have a concert here in the philippines. so that i wont have to pay a lot of money for airfare.

9. for me and janis to watch "the grudge 2" together. and for her to have a safe trip back home here from california.

8. for all my friends to keep up with me. for trei=to continue listening and teaching me nihonngo (ne, tomodachi?). for tonite=to continue makin me laugh. for ate she= for helping me through rough times and for the advices, for airene=for makin me feel like i can be sensible. for gene=for makin me feel important, for kharen=for makin me feel alive with her cosplaying and for introducing me to "breadpan", for sheila=for makin me feel worthy. and to all my friends. i love u!!
to all my highschool friends that i havent talked in months. i love all of u. see me soon, ok? i miss u so much, tropa!!!

7. i wish for the mtv whatever things season 1-3 dvds. = where are they? and for also the 4th season to come up soon. 3rd season came up 12days before my birthday last year. why is it so long?

6. for my family to be safe and healthy all the times.

5. to watch "honey and clover"= sho's latest movie. i know that this will not come true coz it was released in japan only. so sad. but a wish might come true u know?

4. aozora pedal single= i got the video, i got the mp3, i even got the music station performance but i havent got the album(single.) where can i buy it? help me.

3. for my dad to call me on my birthday.= i havent heard from him for months and i do hope that he remember and call me. so, dad, wherever u are, please greet me on my birthday.

2. ARASHIC CD = this is my ultimate wish. to have this cd.

1. for my mom to be ok on my birthday. for her not to be sick. coz i cant take it when she's sick.
++--++

i will edit that if i got some more on my mind.
i got a call from E-TELCARE yesterday. tellin me to go apply to their company.. sounds so crazy but i just signed some papers at west yesterday.. legal papers that im a regular employee!! yeap so im not movin until next year. with all my crazy plans with gene. allrighht?
i watched arashi videos in youtube yesterday for like 3hours and my eyes hurt too much. lolz. and my fave vidz is in my improved friendster profile. go watch it. i cried in aiba's letter to arashi. so so sweet of aiba. im lovin him more each day!!
this is so long.
i gotta end this.

ja ne!

i want somebody

2006-08-09T19:38:00.000+08:00

see?
i love arashi more and more.
i really hate them when i first saw them but they kinda grew on me.
catch their latest performance at utawara and watch it at:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gzXzFm8UAA
this is the first time they performed "i want somebody"
the dance was so so great.
my fave arashi dance is kitto daijoubu.
but the dance here is great.
see?
i would do everything to have an arashi cd now.
any arashi cd.
im birthday's comin up so...
oist, tonite, bilhan mo ako ng arashi cd!!
cge na!!
khit taiwan release papatulan ko ngaun.
lolz.
im starting to act like a freak.

ja ne!!
oyasuminasai!

bambi and cat's eye

2006-08-09T08:15:00.000+08:00

i watched "kisarazu cat's eye" from 9pm-3am monday night to tuesday morning. i finished 8episodes. and my eyes hurts so much. i love the series though. i got a complete review of the series at http://katkatz08.multiply.com i also uploaded some new songs there.
i resumed watching "kisarazu cat's eye" yesterday morning around 9am. barely sleepin this past few days. and my eyes is not nice anymore. after watchin kce, i cooked lunch. picadillo!! yumyum!! and then i took a bath then ate lunch. then i faced again my pc from 2pm-4pm. i slept after that and woke up around 8pm. ate dinner then i cleaned my room. i was in the mood so i did it. i had fun though. coz i was listening to arashi. lolz. and i just found out that shipping and handling from japan will be around 500-800bucks. and that is way way too much. and i havent got enough money yet. i have to go to japan on december and im havin problems about that too. especially the iternirary thing and getting tickets for the johnny's countdown. now, what will i do?
gotta photoblog.

my precious cds, vcds and dvds. i got A LOT. and i didnt know until last night when i cleaned my room. see edc stuff there? yeap. he is my priority. edc rocks!
some english movies and chinese movies i have.. can u see "bug me not" watch it.. coz po lin chen is hot.
my fave pic of sho. sho is so so hot in this pic. bite me!
i took a pic of me right after i cleaned my room. i look haggard, dirty and insomniac. beat me!
anime series, japanese dramas, japanese movies, korean movies, chinese movies, edc albums, ost's, edc movies and jrock cds. some of them are original, some are not. what can i do? some of them are hard-to-find. so my friends burned them for me. yeap, one particular item is missing.. an arashi cd. go figure why. coz i havent got one and i meant to buy one but i cant. coz of money, time and ways. arrggghh.
some screencaptures of kce. i like this scene. it was after bambi (sho's character in kce) won "mr. kisarazu", mohko agreed to be his girlfriend and gave him the picture she took when he was dancing ossai yassai (a traditional dance in kisarazu?). and mohko is the only girl allowed to call him "bambi" (beside his friends!). bambi's a son of a kimono store owner so we see sho wore kimono here. so kawaii.
see the changes? sho is buffier now. i love his arms here. this pic is so so recent. i got a copy of arashi's performance in music station last august4. and this screen capture is mine. i captured it so dont go tellin me its yours. i dont own the video but i got a copy. btw, they sang "aozora pedal" here. the single is the ost of sho's latest movie, "honey and clover" which will be released in 2weeks, i guess. i like this scene so much coz sho was singing his part when nino (the ever so kawaii nino) puts up a "v" sign infront of sho's face. sho just laughed and i like it so much. i gotta post more screencaptures tomorrow if im not lazy.

kce screencapture. this is when sho won "mr. kisarazu". the judge hugged him. he was dancing ossai yassai here. mohko is just nearby watchin this. lolz. love sho.

++-++

i got many things to say.

i maybe brought up differently but my mom taught me about self-respect. i respect myself. and to be able to gain the respect of others, u should have one for urself first.

I DONT SLEEP AROUND.

and what i know is that YOURE easy. thats so down low. i am not gonna say im clean or im pure. but i know how to take care of myself. GO GET SELF-RESPECT 101.

and tell ur friend to get off my friend. go tell her to move on and leave them alone. hindi pa nga kyo kinakadena mo na parang aso c *********. hello? get a life.

+++-++

on a positive note:

happy birthday to cat!! love this girl so much! thanks for everything!

tanjoubi omedetou! arigatou!

am i gettin better in nihonggo? lolz.

i hope i am. go join shosakurai in multiply at http://shosakurai.multiply.com please!

ja ne!

sho.sho.sho. and sakura sake.

2006-08-07T03:49:00.000+08:00

i'll be forever thankful to trei. i got a pv of "sakura sake" coz of her. and i will be forever at ur mercy, trei-sama. arigatou!! arigatou, tomodachi ne.
mom's ok. just a lil hard-headed.
my sis and i was on this shop yesterday spending lotsa money but it just left me hot-headed and pissed off. dont ask me why. u know me.
i bought 2 boxes of pizza for my whole family.
hawaiian and pepperoni.
my family is a "pizza family".
i ate around 4 slices of a family slice pizza.
lolz. too much for my eating disorder. well.
and ive really got nuttin to blog today.
oh, i forgot im gonna get my "kisazaru cat's eye" today.
sho's drama. NOW IM GONNA SEE SHO ACT FOR THE FIRST TIME.
lolz. and i already got a "aozora pedal" mv and the utuban performance last august03.
yeap. its in my pc and ive been watching it over and over again.
thanks to all the people at www.arashian.com for all the videos of arashi.
cant wait to see "honey and clover"..waahh.. as if im gonna be able to see it.
go support my group: http://shosakurai.multiply.com
its new so its empty but im gonna fill it up with sho's nice things.
and support me, ok?
gotta photoblog now.
since july ended, ill share with u my fave pix for the month of july.
thyrza's japanese-schoolgirl costume. isnt she kawaii. taken last july30th before the ncc convention.
i love this 2 girls so much. me, trei and airene at glorietta. this was last weekend. i know its a lil blur and dark. we used airene's new phone (which is the latest nokia model) to capture this one.
guess whatz this? my aiya forum and arashian signature. i made this. isnt sho to die for?

this day was memorable. becoz this was the day i learned that strawberries and cream frapp was erased from the starbucks menu. waahhhh. this was a pic of airene's frapp (dunno which one) last july 27.

janis: im super ok. hope u can come home soon la. take care. and be safe.

love all my friends too much.

ja mate ne!

minna, kio tsukette ne. my japanese is improving a lot lately.

ja!

so sick part 2

2006-08-05T11:36:00.000+08:00

i hate it when im sick but what i hate most is when my mom gets sick.
she is so so fragile when she's sick.
here's the story....
++-++
i arrived at west at 8am yesterday.
i went online and dl some arashi songs and lyrics.
joanna uploaded the "aozora pedaru" mv of arashi at multiply.
aozora pedaru=bluesky pedal
and i watch it. what a great mv. so so so cool.
100times better than kitto daijoubu.
i liked the scene where sho said, "...gomen."
really touched my heart.. that scene was so so sad.
rejection is not really my thing.
the least i wanted in the whole world is rejection.
the girl was so pretty and sho rejected her. woah.
maybe sho likes super pretty girls then. lolz.
i like the video and the song as well.
the lyrics are so so optimistic. so arashi-sh.
and the bridge part was so sho part for a change coz its usually ohno's part.
+++--++
after the dl-time.
i went to do my thing. my job.
then talked to trei the whole freakin day.
we were seatmates yesterday so we talked non-stop.
our sbarro plan was cancelled..(so sad.)
me and trei ate siopao. wow. so chinese.lolz.
then after our shift, we went to the mall.
actually i persuaded her. she was so easy to persuade la. lolz.
then we went to tower records to look for arashi cds but found none.
i was so so so depressed. that i cant eat even though im hungry.
then we walked and walked to look for a place to eat but we really are both indecisive and fickle-minded that it took us about an hour to think for a place to eat and while we were thinking we walkin so that left me so tired.
we passed through tokyo tokyo, jabi. mcdo, CHEF D ANGELO, pizza hut, pho bac, maxims, and even some great resto but we end up eating at KFC coz we were so tired to think la.
so funny. and when while i was on the line to order for our food, the lady behind the counter was so so slow.. i know its mean but its fastfood u know? fast-food.
trei and i saw airene at the mall.
airene was mad at us though becoz of the cancellation of the sbarro thing but we made up yesterday.
im glad she's happy. hope HE and airene will be happy.
just dont hurt airene. coz u will face my wrath. lolz.
trei, tonite and i went home around 8pm.
went home then found my mom all curled up in a blanket with a high-fever and i was so dead worried. i hate it when she's sick. id rather be sick than she being sick coz i worry 100%.
every year, when im birthday's near my mom will always get sick thats why im not always happy when its my birthday. and now she's sick. and i know im a lil paranoid but its my mom. and she is the most important person in the whole world for me.
so there. please pray for her.
im prayin that when i went home tonight, she'll be fine.
she can nag at me today for all she wants just be ok, mom.
++--++

shoutoutz.

bad: thats so so sweet. miss u too, man.
kitty: hajime mashite!! i like u so much!!
janis: where are u la? miss u.
sab: long time no tag. hope ur ok. miss u. takie care.
yana: i hope everything's fine. miss u.

seems like im missin so many people lately.

my last say:
im letting everything go.
coz its for our best.
rightto?
move on.
ill move on.
i have sho now. so im ok.
daijoubu desu.
kitto daijoubu. im so nonsence.
lolz.

ja mata ne!

heartbroken.again

2006-08-04T02:33:00.000+08:00

"if an angel fell in love with a devil,
could they live together?
could one fly with fire?
could one remove its wings?
how pathetic..
you see?
love cant change
WHATS NOT MEANT TO BE.."

++--++
a text message from a friend.
how many times do i have to hurt myself for him?
if being in love with a person is like this everyday,,
i would not like to be in love again.
I LOVE HIM.
but that doesnt mean he have to love me back.
i love him. and i cant let go.
coz honestly,
he cant let go of me too.

so sick

2006-08-03T09:08:00.000+08:00

i hate it when im sick. coz my mom worries big time.
you see, she went with me from our house to west to check if im ok.
she txted me for like 50times yesterday to check if im ok.
i havent been in west for 2days coz of fever, headache, stomachache and a lil bit of my lung problem...
and i dont want people to worry about me when im sick. especially my mom.
it all started monday night when i went home from west.
i had a lotta fun dl-ing some themes and pix (of arashi) with my chum, gene.
we went home around 7pm. and we talked a LOT about some stuff...
and i really like (and love) gene so much!
when i arrived at home at 9pm, i feel like im gonna vomit.
my sister told me im turning ano-rexic again which is so not true.
i cant eat properly due to the fact that my stomach doesnt accept any food at all.
at 11pm, i got a fever. but i really dont mind it coz im a student-nurse.
i know the symptoms. im aware of it...
at 6am, i still got the fever. my head aches a lot. and i cant eat.
i was havin a hard time breathing properly...
i thought my lung problem's back again. but i guess not.
at noon on tuesday, i was not ok. i was flaming hot. i cant eat. but can breathe properly.
read: as much as i love my duties and rounds, i really dont like HOSPITALS, if im goin to be the patient. i hate my own check-ups.
by night, i still am not eating.
by morning, wednesday, i was a lil better. but my mom fought her way to let me stay home. so i did.
daijoubu desu.
and now, im perfectly fine. though i havent ate properly...
++--++
now, im gonna have my kisazaru cat eye on monday from cat..i wanna see sho badly!!
i will have a tattoo soon..on my back to put "sho" at my lower back.
amazing.
btw, i watched "moon child. and i keep on mumbling to my sister, "kath, the chinese actor looks a lot like wang lee hom.." and the end of the movie, i saw wang lee hom's name... wow... he worked with hyde and gackt..who can beat that?
i like the movie. so so so kawaii of hyde... his chinese and gackt's isnt so bad...
and did u know that gackt's char there was named "sho"..lolz...

trivia: did u know the march 30 and 31 is "arashi days" in hawaii? the government approved that..that is to thank them from promoting hawaii'a tourism after the 9-11 tragedy... wow..got that from http://amnos.net

gokusen's anime version was so so good..now im gonna buy the whole series..lolz.
++--++

to all my tomodachi who wished me well:
arigatou gozaimasu!!
and dont worry im back.
and im ok.
daijoubu desu..lolz.
++--++
btw, belated happy birthday to john vincent cuenca (my ex-boyfriend "kuno", he knows what i mean..lolz) and to ryan tan weiwen ("my ex-crush")
who both celebrated their birthdays last august 1!!
tanjoubi omedetou!!

katz radio: current listening to arashi's "aozora pedal"
which is their current single?
didnt they just released an album?
ok.

im back in blogging!!

ja mata ne!!

cant hide the TRUTH

2006-07-31T09:16:00.000+08:00

no matter how i pretend. i can never be over that person. here is his text message saturday night...
"are u mad at me? im sorry if i hurt u in someway. believe me i tried. i just dont want u gettin mad at me. sorry. for hurting u...."
i deleted some part of the message coz it was too personal. he's happy. he told me. but im not. im so so hurt. but im starting to ignore it. i wish i was so numb. i wish i cant feel anything. i wish he will come back. but apparently he will not. this is what i feel right now. and i think im gonna cry. but i hope that i wont. coz eventhough im clouding my mind with sho and arashi, the pain is still there. why does love sucks too much sometimes?
++--++

my uncle visited us from the province last saturday. he's staying at our house and will be leaving tomorrow. he's my mom's older brother. he's a principal and he almost owned the school. he visited to tell my mom that me and my sister will be enrolled in the province next semester. which means=no mall, no conventions, no internet, no pc's, no blogs for the next 1 and half year until i graduate. my mom gave an affirmative decision. my uncle told my mom that he will guide us well. no g-mix. and i will have to resign from my job. which i will not do. i gave my mom a negative answer, of course. and my sis was so not into it bcoz of conventions, which she attends monthly....i am thinkin about it. coz i got so many plans until february 2007. so i think i will go to province to study next next semester which is june2007. thats final.
++-++

congrats to KHAREN!! who won top50 cosplayers at the national cosplay competetion yesterday!!

my sister attended it..so envy her coz rad-aki hugged her...arrgghhh.. and bijan was there as well... i envy her... arrghhh.. these are the things she bought from the convention:
- moon child movie= starring gackt and hyde (my sis fave artists...) yuck!! yaoi!! lolz..
- gto live action episode6= she said its just a preview
- gokusen anime episode 13-15= she said she want to know what shin looks like in the anime version.
- some rpg game osts.

now how i envy her. so stupid of me to not go to ncc.... arrgghhh...
ok. enough.

to gene and kharen who kept accompany me last saturday from 1pm-5:30pm= arigatou!! buy me that 5peso bread-chichiria thing will u? lolz...
and gene, i will check ur blog later.. lolz.

ok.

ja mata ne!!('.')

i feel a lotta better coz i saw gene and co.

sho: fly guy

2006-07-29T13:55:00.000+08:00

"weekend gonna make luv...
from monday to sunday..
lucky lucky lucky
my life.."
-"kitto daijoubu", sho's rap part
++--++

those were sho's rap lines that made all the girls' jaw dropped...
well, for one..its kinda like un-sho thing to rap about.. righhto?
but its one of my fave song and sho is absolutely my fave arashi member
right now...
the rap..the smile... the adorable eyes..
and he even got a diploma outta keio university (one of the ivy league school in japan..).
ive just read this info from http://s.amnos.net which is sho's fanlisting...
i absolutely adore sho right now...
efa might kill me for this.. efa adores sho so much...

ok. enough about sho.
i took a arashi quiz. guess whats the result? lolz.. i am compatible with ohno satoshi.. i took the quiz 5times so that sho's name might come up but it didnt... the result: 2x for nino and 3x ohno so i think ohno's compatible with me...
but i like sho!!
ok. enough about sho. seriously.
+++--+++
i woke up today (saturday?!!?) and mom was busy cookin breakfast for me.. wait..its not sunday...then why is she.. ok. enough..
thanks mom.
then went to west.
met airene and talked outside chunkyboyz for 30minutes before heading to west.
i am freakin so hungry today... dunno why...
ok. so i do have some EH today and there will be a possibility i might now come online with my aiya boyz and girlz.. our online chatting aiya! style.. i will try my best to come online at 8pm..
and these are the peeps comin on saturday:
tonite.trei.she.airene.me.gene.kharen.arvin.
who else? just talk to me...or sms me or tag here...or call me.

finally, im really irritated with people typing messages like this:
hI Im KaThY. iM eIgThEeN. cOmE oNLiNe In MsN.
my eyes hurt when i read msgs like this especially if its in a sms..
i appreciate the effort writing it but please dont txt me like that way.
and also in the internet...
please my eyes hurt so much.
i knoe its so rude of me. but this is my blog and write things here for myself.
please for give for my petty worries.

ja mata ne!!